Saturday, December 29, 2007
i'm so fucking pissed off that my hands are fucking shaking as i type. there's this emotion in me...i can't tell whether it's disappointment or resignation or hate. but i feel like screaming. or getting drunk. i don care which. i just wanna fucking forget for a second.
FUUUCK. that's what i wanna scream at you right now.
JUST FUCKING STOP. that's what i wanna tell you. because eventually you are gonna screw us over.
22:01
Sunday, December 23, 2007
i just came home from JB! that's twice in three days i've been there now. haha. on friday, when i went we were supposed to watch enchanted at this shopping centre called tebrau city. but wtf. e cinema had a blackout. hahahaha. of all the times! so we went to watch at city square instead. pple, you will not believe how CHEAP tix are there! weekends it's only 10 ringgit. wednesdays it's like 6 ringgit. like wow! haha. and do you know I AM LEGEND opened like on e 21st in m'sia? and it's only gonna open on christmas in s'pore? sad.
oh oh! we were at woodlands checkpoint when i noticed it seemed like the glass of the windows of e car in front of us was broken. i thought it was my eyes playing tricks but i overheard the driver telling the policeman there that someone broke into his car! so freaking suay! his front windshield and the back were like totally smashed. bits and pieces of glass were still on the car. it was a nissan sunny i think and it looked old. so pple, if you think your car is safe in JB just cos it looks like crap, think twice!
shocking WTF news of the week: jamie lynn spears is pregnant?! like GTFO! and at 16 too! seriously maaaan. was it inevitable seeing how sis britney turned out? maybe mommy spears decision to keep them in the spotlight has affected their mental state. tsk.
go catch I AM LEGEND when it comes out! it's fantastic. a little short though, in my opinion. maybe cos i love will smith so much. haha. he's da bomb.
oh and merry christmas in advance! and happy belated hari raya haji!
# we wish you a merry christmas.
22:14
Monday, December 17, 2007
yay hady's the asian idol. haha completely unexpected but yes, it happened! wooo. go singapore.
and even better, man u won against liverpool! go tevez! i almost chewed my fingers off during e first half, cos liverpool almost scored like a gazillion times in e span of 15 seconds. scary shit. but yessaaaa, we won! unfortunately arsenal won their match against chelsea so they're one point ahead of us. nvm add oil add oil man u!
ahhh today's e start of the taxi fare hikes. damn if only i drove...transport after clubbing wouldn't be a hassle. looks like we'll have to stay at zouk until the first train comes. wahaha.
i'm watching 'i propose' where they show how guys propose to their gfs. it's a half hour show...and in e past 20 min, e guy cried like twice. haha but he's so sweet. for his proposal, he hired a freaking yacht, a limo and bought a ring with a huuuge diamond. oops let's make that 3 times he cried. oh man this is so freaking sweet. he's barely able to propose cos he's crying so much. how touching. haha.
wow he's like a nervous wreck and it's just e proposing part. i wonder what's gonna happen when they actually get married. or when they have their first kid! he'll probably faint. or go into a coma. haha.
okie dokes. i shall go play some games. i just bought 'land of the dead' and the zombies are kicking my ass! argh!
and awww hady's crying on e news. don't cry, bb. (too much ONTD)
# for all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took.
21:14
Sunday, December 16, 2007
i found this on youtube. and it's so freaking sad. i actually cried when i watched it.
Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
and bury me
in all my favorite colors,
my sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
cause the hardest part of this,
is leaving you.
Now turn away,
cause I'm awful just to see
cause all my hair's abandoned all my body,
Oh, my agony,
know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
but counting down the days to go.
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know
That if you say (if you say)
Goodbye today (goodbye today)
I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)
Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you...
Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you...
_________________________
# my chemical romance.
17:40
Saturday, December 15, 2007
I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday.
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
I am the man who fears that I will never be able to be myself, to be free of this secret because I won’t risk losing my family and friends.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
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i found this somewhere. and it was really sad. stop the hating.
sleepover was fun! yo tracy, i skipped a coupla grades. i'm a genius. shhh.
# do you know what they do to guys like us in prison?
13:23
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
it's the afternoon. it's raining non stop. my knuckles are freaking bruised from punching some mosher last night. i didn't think i punched THAT hard. oh and yes, there was a piece of glass stuck in my toe. i just realised it was there before i went to sleep. so the numbing pain in my toe wasn't cos i was jumping too much after all. it was cos of the stupid glass. which prob came from the concert. though i do not know why there is glass there.
so i'm at work. and stoning. my neck is aching. and i can't walk properly (ironically, as promised by gerard).
...ahhh i wish i could go back to yesterday.
# cos the hardest part of this is leaving you.
13:29
HOLY SHIT.
the MCR concert was fucking awesome. when the first beats of the drums came, it was a sign to go wild, and yes, everyone did. the first two songs were so bloody chaotic cos everyone was pushing and shoving. and falling and fainting. i think a lot of pple in e front thought it was too rowdy and left. whatever. more space for us. haha. but it was pretty violent la. apparently, some guy thought i was gonna faint, cos he asked tracy if i was gonna pass out soon. haha. BUT after that, it was FANTASTIC. i thought i was gonna have a heart attack from all the screaming and jumping, but hooray i lived long enough to watch the entire concert.
me and tracy reached e place around 5plus. and ate. den queued up. e queue was freaking long. and very messy. pple were cutting all over the place. there were a bunch of whiny girls behind us. unfortunately one was from cedar. which is so sad...cos she's giving a bad name to my beloved secondary sch. whine whine and whine. SLAP.
den there was this bunch of psychotic ang moh girls who looked like they were in pri sch, who started singing backstreet boys songs. and then one of them noticed that my t-shirt had eminem on it. and she actually moved my hair so everyone could see. wow. freaky.
some memorable things from the concert (besides MCR duh) : 'korean' guys(who just looked korean, but nowhere near the hotness that is hyun bin, they were more towards the ugly spectrum of bae young joon), who became our steamrollers in pushing to the front. ang moh guys who were surrounding me who took off their t shirts (but did not have nice bods, just very sweaty). also the circle of 'friendship' as i have come to dub it. it was seen in all rock concerts i've been to...the circle which inevitably forms and boys start fighting while dancing (there's a name for this?). AND the condom balloons that were floating around before MCR came on stage, blown by some mat, no doubt. who wasted like 10 bucks (how much does a box of condoms cost?) and all his many sized condoms.
the show itself was amazing. totally fucking awesome. they played my favourite! 'cancer'! i recorded some of it on my handphone. but e sound is shit. ah what else to expect. STILL, to have been there. freaking cool. and of course they sang lots more from black parade. and three cheers. and there was this one unreleased track. i think it was called 'falling down'. so nice. i shall try to find it. ah screamed so much. tomorrow i will have no voice. it was 97 bucks. but it was worth every cent. and worth every drop of sweat of someone else's that landed on me.
i have work tomorrow. which is such a buzzkill. the sound of silence is ringing in my ears now. like post-clubbing effects, except multiplied by a hundred. ahhh. i can't stop thinking about the concert. fan-fucking-tastic.
...and gerard said : we're gonna fuck you till you can't walk tomorrow.
oh yes, please do.
# famous last words.
00:00
Saturday, December 08, 2007
i've been dreaming of a true love's kiss...
ladeedum. ohmigosh, enchanted was so nice. i love mcdreamy and prince edward. haha. it is a total must watch if you haven't watched it. laughed the entire time. loved it.
yay exams are over. it's the holidays. but i'm gg to start work again soon. booo. but yippee for the money! haha.
watched golden compass too. it was ok la. haha those narnia type shows. not much action. but e last part was WOW. had me at the edge of my seat. and heartbreak kid. haha it's not that funny but ok la. i am gonna watch all the movies and tv shows that i missed out on. haha.
enchanted has made me wanna watch all the disney shows again. so i will go watch cinderella! haha.
20:06
