Wednesday, October 31, 2007
"Cleaners found the baby in a rubbish cart this morning".
WHAT THE FUCK. a newborn baby boy was dumped in a rubbish cart at havelock road. that is fucked up. really really. i don understand how people can do that. they must be seriously ill in the head. mothers who get rid of their children like that...i have no respect for them. maybe they have their reasons. maybe they have post natal depression or whatever the fuck it is. but i just can't find it in myself to have pity or understanding for them.
abortion is one thing...it's something i'm against but understand. not being able to provide for the child, or whatever reasons a person may have, abortion may be the only choice they have. why try raising a child if you know you can't? don't bring a child into a life of misery. but dumping your child like that? even if the child is dead before, doesn't he or she deserve a proper burial?
ah i'm getting really depressed cos of this. but gosh thank god my mom gave me a chance to live. it's only because of her that i'm here right now, blogging. for that, she is my most important person.
oh. he is TOO cute.
21:38
Sunday, October 28, 2007
it's been a while. i've been busy with meeting deadlines most of the time. and trying to study. but i have to say i have no perseverance at all. i'm a procrastinator and i know it, but i'm not doing anything about it. sometimes, i feel like a complete idiot, and i wonder what the fuck am i doing in uni. and how the hell did i get in? and why am i still here if all i'm going to do is skip lectures and tutorials and waste money? i know it's stupid and i should change, but i just don't. i'm a slacker, i know that. but sometimes i think it's seriously fucked up. i'm fucked up.
i'm tired. and there's a lot on my mind. and i'm being all emotional and shit. i have no idea why. when in fact i had a really great day. arts open, band concert, dinner, a match where man u scored 4 goals for the 4th match in a row. and remains undefeated for the 8th match in a row. booyah. but when i reached home after, i just sat down for a moment, and and these thoughts just bombarded my mind all of a sudden. i feel like throwing something. or screaming.
i'm just feeling really really frustrated.
just....
fuck.
01:07
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
it's 5.25am and i'm in the arts clubrm, trying to study. haha. stats test is on wednesday and truth be told, i've never felt so stressed about a test in my entire life. i'm really worried about this test...and thus, i'm staying up to study. why i'm in the clubroom? we had a small bday party for all the october babies juz now. so i decided to stay here. haha. sleeping here is kinda nice. it makes me warm that we have a sort of second home and that we're all comfortable enough with each other to share the small space. haha. and even though it's stuffy, and smells really weird, it's still cozy.
speaking of cozy, i think that's what a home should be. or a room at least. i don't particularly find my house a cozy place, but my room...i love it. it's kind of like a pair of well-worn jeans i guess. it's been worn and washed a lot of times, so it's softer and really comfy. haha. so my room is like that. it's pair of well-worn jeans.
and why am i blogging when i'm supposed to be studying? i dunno. i juz needed a break i guess. the numbers are tough. but i think i'll manage. i juz hafta pull through. haha. ok i shall get back to studying.
# stats. stats. stats. stats. i'm flatlining.
05:21
