Move Along.

Friday, August 24, 2007

have you ever had that feeling like you've been sleeping for 100 years and when you wake up you find everything around you has changed? or you're going in slow motion, and everyone and everything is just going by too fast? you're just stagnant, and nobody sees you, cos they're just walking by you, not turning their heads. everyone's just a blur. and you're totally alone. i just had that thought...whether there's ever been a moment in my life where i felt totally helpless. i don't know. i'm not being emo or anything. haha. really.

i've been sick for the past two days. i guess e rainy weather isn't helping my clogged up nose. but it's wonderful to juz bury my head in my pillow when it's all stormy outside.

that is if i din have to wake up for school. haha.

speaking of which, school has been slightly more than totally boring. lectures, that is. meeting friends for lunch and hanging out is totally cool. cos some of them i haven't seen since last sem! which is unbelievably sad. i guess i can't totally hate school. it provides the setting for meeting friends during breaks and whatnot. and i totally missed the library, the comfy chairs where i can study (sleep).

i need to get a part time job. library is only on weekends. and i get not that much each month. being a waitress din work out cos i juz can't work with some of the people there. so i shall look once again. maybe tuition. easy money man. haha. but i want somebody who lives in my block. is that possible? haha. on my floor? i want.

sigh and i've been slacking too much. and it's only e 2nd week of school. bad sufi, bad. i will no longer skip lectures. or tutorials. and i will do my readings. and study when i have the time. really. promise. really.

really.

# dean's list, here i come.

23:36

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

When You're Gone- Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear

To always get me through the day

And make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor

And they smell just like you

I love the things that you do

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear

To always get me through the day

And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were, yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

___________

i love this song. and the video. it's not some meaningless booty shaking or half clothed women. the impact of it...wow. i actually wanted to cry watching it. videos like this, and 'hold on' by good charlotte...it brings across a message that strikes you right where it matters most, the heart. sometimes, i think...yes, this is what music is. something that shoots right through your soul...a melody you can appreciate, lyrics that have meaning to them. music is not just liking what you hear, it's feeling what you hear.

if i could make music like that...i'd be the happiest person alive.

# i miss you.

23:29

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

wheee. a week has passed by REAL fast! wow. ya know what?! i feel so damn cheated. like some time ago, i got this email which said that fiona xie! was coming down to school for some show called "Hey Gorgeous!" and i was superduper excited. so that day was today. and she didn't come! NUS, how could you lie to me like this?! gahhh. kym ng came instead. she's funny. but she's not fiona xie. dimweidnweufnrfueneor! haha but anyways long story short, i'm happy e guy who won was alywin. but the girl is ugly. throw face man. blegh.

but in other news! arts bash was on sat! at dxo. place was boring as hell. but the music was surprisingly better den e last time. and e pageant was kinda fun. e guy who became Mr. Arts also won the Hey Gorgeous thing by e way. so funny. last yr's mr. arts against this yr's mr. arts. anyways...oh oh! there were fireworks rite before bash too! there's a fireworks display on fri and sat and it was juz amazing. i loveeeee.

photos!

fireworks! which we managed to see from dxo rooftop! whee. so nice la! so colourful too.

ethel, me, ju, anna, bobby and uncle! before bash started.

pretty ladies. haha.

so yes. i'm still kinda disappointed i din get to see fiona xie. but oh well. haha.

# hey gorgeous. not.

23:43

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

loyalty. it's a very important word, a very important concept to me. loyalty to friends, loyalty to your other half, and most importantly, loyalty to family. without loyalty, there is no trust. and without trust, there are no relationships.

being faithful to one person..that's being loyal to him or her. building trust and not letting other factors influence your opinions. no matter what, you're with that one person...and to me, it's juz wrong that a person can be abandoned so easily. it makes me wonder how convenient those three words are. "I love you". in those words, lies a promise...yet it's so easily misused and taken advantage of. "Let's break up." as easily said. yet hurts so much more.

please excuse the moment of crappiness. i'm juz irked by the season of breaking up and hooking up with other people. i'm surrounded by it. and though i don't know your side of the story, it's juz so what the fuck. all my faith in love and relationships juz got locked away in a giant safe, maybe never to be reopened again. ahhh my first post in a long time and it had to start with such depression...but i had to get this off my chest. oh wells. on to brighter things!

OWEEK 07! booyahhh. i would post pictures but there's juz tooooo many!

so i was in ocomm for oweek as a programmer. and weeks of hard work finally paid off. though one of my programmes got scraped due to time constraints, i have to say, the happiness i felt when night ventures ended cannot be described in words. i think when something is a success, the jubilation is just ....wow. it's really something you have to experience to understand...because after weeks of worrying and how the programme was a failure during pre camp, it was just amazing to know that people liked it during the actual camp. gosh i'm just rambling.

oweek this time ard was really bittersweet. there were lots of hard times, but in the end everything ended on a high and more importantly, everyone had fun! PLUS TEH ONG WON!! T house is the best man. 3 years in a row...best house for oweek. kickass.

i really did enjoy oweek. had great fun, lots of laughter and most importantly, i made new friends. and really, what's camp without having fun with friends?! thanks to all those that helped with night ventures, from ocomm to station helpers to dispatchers, to the programmers i worked with.

seriously speaking. everyone rocked my oweek.

# school has started. but i'm not out of the camp mood AT ALL.

21:48