i completely fucking detest the way people talk about me like i'm not there. gossiping and bitching is one thing (and i so CANNOT deny i don gossip and bitch about other pple) but actually doing it when the person you're gossiping about is there is so fucking irritating. is my personal life so bloody interesting that you actually have to keep going on and on about it...even though you've repeated it a million times to the same person in the past hour.
to be the focal point of gossip isn't a pleasant thing, but it doesn't bug me much. because the news will reach me eventually, and i'll rant and bitch a while, but in the end, all gossip will die down. maybe a flicker here and there, but it's not like it's something scandalous. but PLEASE! i don't need to know something about me over and over again. i got it the first time. i seriously freaking hate being the topic of discussion, but being treated like i'm invisible. fuck man.
AND i can't stand how pple try to meddle with my life. advice i can take, but fucking ordering me to do something is unacceptable. i'm not 3 fucking years old. and while i'm not completely independent, trying to control every single aspect of my life will be met with a fuck-off. and please, if trying to control me is just because you're taking out your anger on me, you're being completely stupid and unreasonable.
and why the HELL don't i get a say in this matter?! probably zero people know what i'm talking about right now, but i'm juz typing whatever comes to mind. seriously man...the whole gossip thing has gotten way out of hand. it's not New Paper material anymore...it's gone all the way up to like Straits Times! gah...stop assuming my stand on this stupid thing. stop assuming things about me. i have my own opinions dammit.
shitpissfuckdamn. i'm so freaking pissed that i can't even find calm in music. everything's just really angry and loud. and i have a huge headache. fucker.
# in the beginning, i tried to warn you, you play with fire, it's gonna burn you.
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the girl.
Sufi
Family is my heart
Friends are my oxygen
Having fun is my passion
Music is my soul
