Monday, February 26, 2007
guys are so fucking unreasonable. there's always a need for them to pick a fight, and people say girls are the ones who pick at everything? sheesh. why do you think only guys go for ns...no, no, not that us, girls physically may not be able to handle it, but because guys finally have the reason to be all macho and show off their manly pride. yea, yea, guys may moan and groan about having to go for ns, but it's like they feel it's their right to complain about ns, isn't it? it's like..."oh i have to go for ns, daaaamnnn...comfort me now, woman. i'm going off for 2 years to learn to defend our country." or..."i'm only back for the weekend...you should free up your entire schedule to meet me, you should be honoured...i could be spending time with my family instead of you". ya like what the fuck. stop whining already.
ok i'm exaggerating. but the POINT is...guys are unreasonable. generally. and ns is just an example, not that i'm picking on ns guys or anything. haha. but the scenario above has happened like 10 trillion times, right, friends?
YOU are unreasonable, you have to admit it. i think i've lost count of how many times you've called me a bitch and actually meant it. and i feel like kicking myself...cos it seems like the same thing repeating itself. maybe it's me...i keep falling into this vicious trap of the highest highs and the lowest lows. i'm like one of those drug addicts, who know that shooting up is bad, but do it anyway. and the high is like me soaring in the skies, but when i come down, i crash and burn. but god, what is it with me and my insane need to keep hurting myself like this? i'm not naive, and i don't trust people easily, but somehow when i let my defenses slip a little, i just end up having to reinforce them with super strong concrete and UHU glue.
what is wrong with people like you? it's like you don't understand the words i'm saying. the reasons i'm giving for keeping a distance. and it's not a "fucking shit" reason as you put it. it's a perfectly damn good reason. and you don't seem to get it, cos you're like a little boy who can't get that GameBoy that he wants, so he won't listen to reason, and everyone has to put up with his whining and temper trantums. that's what you are. a spoiled kid throwing a fucking temper trantum. put aside that anger and those hateful words aside for a while and use that brain in your thick skull in a useful way for a second. THINK, moron, THINK.
how would you feel if your girl broke up with you, and went and dated your very best friend, the guy you grew up with you, the guy you trusted? and don't say you'd give them your blessings, idiot, cos i know if it really happened, you would be pissed off as hell. cos then you would start having second thoughts about that girl...that maybe, all the while, the relationship was just an act, that the love confession you pestered her into giving wasn't real. that maybe she's thrown away all the gifts you bought her, and is that the reason why she forgot your anniversary? cos why would she give a fuck anyway since....maybe she was USING you to get to your best friend, and congratulations, dipshit, you've been fooled. it'd only end in misery.
i told you once, didn't i? and you didn't listen. guys never listen!
friends. that's all we are, and that's all we'll ever be. get it through your thick skull, idiot.
# and. i swear i will punch you the next time you cross the line.
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
happy valentine's day! haha.
ok ok i noe i haven updated for a super duper long time...but i guess i've juz been busy and everytime something interesting happens, i don have the energy to blog about it. haha.
valentine's is so not a big deal in NUS...it feels normal. haha except for the influx of chocolate. yummy. you know what?! i wanted to buy chupa chups today and it was actually SOLD OUT! at NTUC!!!! ahhh what is the world coming to? even 7-11 didn't have. whywhywhy??? haha. i'm nuts la.
went to munchie monkey's wit tracy and ju to watch liza perform and we laughed a lot throughout. can't really explain what it's about but......BWAHAHAHA. thinking about it makes me crack up again. haha. must be the air at YIH. haha.
i'm going to phuket next month! yayy. so exciting la. there's still school....buuuut nevermind la. once in a lifetime opportunity.
i'm juz rambling now. cos i can't seem to put my thoughts into proper words. haha. but i have to say i haven't laughed like i have today in the longest time. happy. happy.
whee.
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