Sunday, November 19, 2006
i'm supposed to be feeling happy. but i feel kinda sad. it's tough trying to smile nowadays. everything's just a blur, and i think...i'm thinking too much. this is bullshit. i wanna breathe...i can't. i wanna tell myself everything will be ok...when someone asks me how i am, i wanna say i'm not fine.
i want to scream so loud that my throat will become raw. i want to hit something so hard that my knuckles will bleed. i want to run so far that i'll collapse from not being able to breathe. i want to jump so high that when i come down, i'll break my leg. i want to do everything so much, that i'll have nothing.
i wish i could tell you my fears, my desires, my likes, my dislikes...but i can't seem to open my mouth. i wish i could tell you what i feel...but i can't. you told me once, that you would wait, but i don't want you to wait anymore...just don't wait, ok?
# i am not afraid to walk this world alone.
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