Move Along.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

okie dokie. so exams have started. gawd had islam today. it was ok i guess, dunno whether i wrote crap, but i wrote stuff. so yay for that. haha. so one down, four to go. ugh. anime tmrw. and i'm in deep shit cos i haven seen all the films required for this course. so i'm basically screwed. praying i'll be lucky tmrw. haha.

ikea is opening on thur! yay! finally. it actually sorta opened already la...but big opening is on thur. woohoo. going on friday. definitely. and it so not ikea TAMPINES. it's like much nearer to pasir ris. damn all these technicalities. haha.

i'm thinking i should be studying right now. hmmm. i haven started on anime. duhh. haha. got back my anime paper, and yay, presentation was A- and paper was a (pathetic) B-. but hey, at least the presentation rocked! got back my js paper too. and boy, i was like laughing when i read my tutor's comments on the train. gawd, there was one which cracked me up. i quote: "get a dictionary and use it". haha.

he's so damn sarcastic laaa. haha. but anyways we got a B so whatever la. there was another grp which got D and he put there, your group handed this in late,but i won't penalise you, because your grade is bad enough. like omg. haha.

alrighty i guess i should study now. sighhh. can't wait for exams to be over. i just wanna kick back and relax man.

nitee.

# sam. dean. sam. dean. SAM.

23:38

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

it's about 4 in the morning...and i'm in my school library, rotting away (actually trying to study...but same difference. haha) and listening to music. right now, blink-182 is playing. nice song. so far, the studying thing's not working too well cos i'm a procrastinator...and i get distracted. really easily. sighh. the music thing rocks though. haha.

tracy and juling are here too. and they're actually studying. or juling seems to be. tracy looked like she was about to fall asleep reading islam notes but now she's eating an apple.

man, i'm juz rambling...trying to waste more time. haha. the school is kinda creepy at night (as are all huge buildings) and it's so silent that it's loud. haha.

i went to jurong swimming complex today! water park, like wild wild wet...but it's like a $1 entry fee. i chose to ignore my friend's comment about seeing a cockroach in the water and surprise, surprise, it was relatively clean. haha. it was pretty fun. no pictures though. cos i would have just died if my camera got wet. haha.

nice place. cheap too. so i wanna go again! i wish it were a little (or a lot) nearer to home though. haha.

went to vivo again yesterday. bumped into tons of people and had someone to say hi to everywhere i turned. once again, went to toys'r'us cos that place is awesome. spent like over 3 hours there. man, that place is a freaking playground! haha. and i even bought stuff. what can i say, i don't wanna grow up, i'm a toys'r'us kid! (that's from their theme song by the way...helluva irritating song that kept repeating and repeating and repeating.......)

supposed to go to the wading pool on the rooftop park, but it was raining! so sad! twice this has happened. dammit.

my mood is totally improving. i feel like the sun is finally shining down on me, and the rain has gone away, though ironically, it rained yesterday and just now. haha.

hmmmm...happy!

blame the high-ness on my lack of sleep. god, i can count the number of hours of sleep i've had in the past 5 days. hmm...1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6...hmm 8 hours altogether! haha. wheeeeee~

# sleep. need sleep. can't sleep. shit. sleeeeep.

04:03

Sunday, November 19, 2006

i'm supposed to be feeling happy. but i feel kinda sad. it's tough trying to smile nowadays. everything's just a blur, and i think...i'm thinking too much. this is bullshit. i wanna breathe...i can't. i wanna tell myself everything will be ok...when someone asks me how i am, i wanna say i'm not fine.

i want to scream so loud that my throat will become raw. i want to hit something so hard that my knuckles will bleed. i want to run so far that i'll collapse from not being able to breathe. i want to jump so high that when i come down, i'll break my leg. i want to do everything so much, that i'll have nothing.

i wish i could tell you my fears, my desires, my likes, my dislikes...but i can't seem to open my mouth. i wish i could tell you what i feel...but i can't. you told me once, that you would wait, but i don't want you to wait anymore...just don't wait, ok?

# i am not afraid to walk this world alone.

20:44

Saturday, November 18, 2006

thank you all friends and family who wished me happy birthday. the funniest thing happened la. cos my mom's birthday is the day before mine, i bought her a cake in secret. and surprised her. and suddenly at 12am, on my birthday, everyone came into my room with a cake too. haha. so we ate cake twice la.

juz now went out with e family to eat at banquet. man i was so damn full. ate yummy fried fish soup. and mee taimak (finally) which doesn't taste so nice anymore. sighh..after that my aunt brought me and my cousin to swensens to eat ice cream. and oh mi gosh...felt like puking after that. so damn full! haha.

well, i'm 19 now. i'm not gonna do all that reflecting on my life shit...cos all that matters is the now. not the past. yeah.

....feel old. haha.

# disenchanted.

00:35

Monday, November 13, 2006

wooo today was an awesome day. had a early birthday celebration with tracy, juling and anna. yay. a great movie with a yummy actor, and a great cafe with yummy food. what more can i ask for on a day of relaxation? whee.

first the movie. STEP UP.

WHICH WAS AWESOME. from the music to the choreography, it was great. and not forgetting...

..channing tatum who is a SEX GOD. u may remember him from coach carter and she's the man. gawd, he is so HOT. he is perfection personified. with that body, and the voice, and the eyes. and he can dance. and play soccer. and play basketball. oh mi gosh, yummy. *drools* i could look at him all day. sighhhhhh.

and that stupid female lead (whatever her name is) has made four new enemies today. (cos she's dating MY channing in real life) die, bitch, die. channing tatum deserves so much better than the stupid girl who broke up justin timberlake and britney spears and another couple too. maan...she is so damn lucky. haha.

ahhh sighhhh....*swoons*

ok stop stop. haha. alrighty after that we went for lunch. yummy food at ms. clarity cafe. and not too ex too. we got set meals.

alrighty the set meal came with a drink. this is lime juice.

so there was corn soup. which tasted pretty good.

this is juling's. she ate fish baked pasta. it looked pretty yummy. but i had my own fish. which i had difficulty finishing. haha.

anna ate grilled dory fillet or something like that. i don really like grilled fish. but it looked appetizing. haha.

and this is tracy's! crispy chicken with black pepper sauce. definitely yummy, from the content look on tracy's face. haha. but i think the sauce was a bit watery. (wat am i, a food critic? haha)

and this is my yummy good old fashioned fish and chips! delish and huge serving. but i managed to finish it. (not my money waaat)

and this was our dessert. mango pudding. it was quite pathetic. like a small slab of jelly. but nvm everything else was yum.

MUD OOZE. this is what tis dessert is called. it is SOOO chocolate-y that if i had to eat it alone, definitely wouldn't be able to finish it. haha.

and yay i've completed what seems to be what a person who has a new camera and has a blog would do. take pictures of food! hahahaha.

bought My Chemical Romance album and this DVD called 'Mad Hot Ballroom' which is a fantastic show. seriously. haha. i wanna go JB to buy DVDs!

and i wanna see channing tatum again! ah sighhhhhhhh....*heart heart*

thank you girls! you've made my day! love ya loads. and thanks for the presents and the treat! wheeee~

# forgot my dew.

20:03

Friday, November 10, 2006

i'm not too sure of anything in my life anymore. there's a lot of thoughts in my head, and it feels like my head's about to burst. i can't sleep. i really want to sleep properly. but i can't. i keep thinking. and worrying. problems, problems, problems. i'm gonna get freaking crease lines on my face from frowning so much. fuck.

for one, i'm starting to wonder if going to uni was a mistake. if going to jc was a mistake. maybe i should have gone to poly. then i could have found a job right after. i wouldn't be worrying about money. i wouldn't be trying to find another part time job. of course, then i think, it's too late to be wondering about this. i'm already here, at this point in my life. i can't turn back time.

i'm worried about the future. not future, as in 10 years from now. future, as in a week, a month. i'm worried about the now too. what's gonna happen? how am i to help? how am i to lessen the burden? and i feel like some useless leech, i can't do shit. ah so fucked up, so bloody fucked up.

i feel like i'm floating further and further away from my friends. i haven't seen my best friends since like what...forever? i don't tell them things. but then again, i've never really told anyone much. and i crazy or something? i wanna say stuff, but my mouth just clamps up whenever i wanna tell them something personal. man, i have issues. but who doesn't?

ah fuck la. just let me wallow in self-misery. i'll smile and laugh. i promise.

# ladeedum. it ends tonight.

00:27

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

i know my life isn't perfect...and things aren't going great for me. but i don't need your fucking pity. don't treat me like a damned charity case. i may not have everything...but i still have my pride. so don't treat me like the beggar on the corner street, cos i'm not desperate.

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the rain today was horrible. the whole campus was freaking flooded. sheesh. when it rains, it really RAINS. haha. and juz when i thot the rain was lessening, it only got heavier. i was like...dammit. haha.

my anime presentation on monday was a success, i think. i mean pple laughed when they were supposed to, so i guess it was ok. a little messy i think...and i guess we didn't present e themes properly. haha. but what the hell...it was about creativity, and all the themes will be in our written paper anyways. haha.

today's anime lecture was so damn boring. man i can't stand it. and i freaking HATE projects! i have two due this friday...and i hafta complete my part of another project by fri too...all the projects are pissing me off. gahh. and it's not like i have loads of free time.

sighhh...i'm so bloody tired. i just want a proper night's sleep. just one night...

# just a day, just an ordinary day.

22:01