i don't want to be alone, she says. i just want to get married. i just want to have kids. i just want a family. i'm not getting any younger. he wants to marry me.
to you. don't get married because you should, get married because you want to. don't get married because you have someone, get married because you love someone. marriage is for life, so don't treat it lightly. it's not just a contract binding two people together, it's a vow that nothing will break them apart. it's not just putting down your signatures on a marriage certificate, it's imprinting your mark on another's heart.
marriage is love. and love isn't easy. what makes you think marriage will be easy?
but love is easy. i'm always happy with him. he takes care of me. he loves me. he gives me everything i need. and we've never had a fight. i've never felt so in love in my life.
then you haven't been with him long enough to experience actual love. love is hard. love is tough. love is difficult and it's a real bitch to deal with. it's about sacrifices and learning to accept not only the wonderful things about him. but the bad as well. love involves tears, anger, misery and hate. call me a cynic, but how many couples can actually say that they've fought, hated each other...then hate themselves for hurting each other? realising one's mistakes and admitting to them...seeking forgiveness, and giving forgiveness...that's love.
because let's face it, love hurts. sometimes, it hurts so bad, you can't stand it. and sometimes, it hurts so long, you can hardly feel it. it's just there...a dull throb deep in your heart. because love, and the whole concept of love is fucked up.
and you're fucked up. because you know you've been hurting so long that you think you're happy. it's enough that you feel happy when you're with him...only because you never spend enough time with him. it's enough that he gets everything you want...but is never around often enough to see your smile. it's enough that you think he takes care of you, and loves you...when he's never actually said those three words. and you know it's fucking bullshit. you know i think it's crap.
it's fucked up.
...but i just don't want to be alone.
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the girl.
Sufi
Family is my heart
Friends are my oxygen
Having fun is my passion
Music is my soul
