Saturday, April 29, 2006
tch ok. so there was a slight error in my last post.
what was written:
"i swear 10 years from now, if someone asks me how working in the library is like...i'll answer waiver forms, lots and lots of waiver forms...cos that'll probably be the only thing i remember."
what i meant was:
i swear 10 years from now, if someone asks me how working in the library is like...i'll answer waiver forms, lots and lots of waiver forms...cos that'll probably be the only thing i remember. cos with me, the bad things about something always pop out. but after more reflection, i'll remember the people i worked with cos they were totally awesome. SERIOUSLY. (in their own crazy, demented ways) haha.
16:44
Friday, April 28, 2006
oh just realised 4 days ago was my blog's birthday again. wow 2 whole years i've been ranting and raving for all to see. haha. i think i shall be changing my blogskin again. it's kinda plain and boring though hyde looks pretty cool. heh.
once again i'm at work doing waiver forms. it's endless man. and sheesh it feels like i'm doing homework. which i completely detest. it's like i'm on automatic. come into work, change, get waiver forms and start filling up. i swear 10 years from now, if someone asks me how working in the library is like...i'll answer waiver forms, lots and lots of waiver forms...cos that'll probably be the only thing i remember. haha.
i've been thinking about getting another ear piercing. as if there's not too many as it is. haha. now the only thing is to psycho my mother into allowing me. or maybe, just go on ahead with it. she probably won't notice...not with how many there already are. hehs.
ok well shall get back to work. torture my brain some more. toodles.
oh yes...stupid blond bimbo kelly pickler is out of american idol. oh the joy! haha.
# i'm starting to hate people. i wish everyone came with an on and off switch.
13:39
Thursday, April 27, 2006
e day started out shitty man. i woke up late for my driving lesson. my first one by the way. then i tried to get a cab. which was practically impossible. and after waiting for almost an hour (i was already late), the cab driver i got didn't know how to get to the driving centre. amazing. my luck was fucking amazing. haha.
so i had my first driving lesson. and i'm totally not a natural born driver. haha. i couldn't get the biting point right...so e car engine kept stalling. but the instructor was pretty cool la...very patient guy. looking forward to the next lesson. yay.
but but but...the day ended fucking AWESOME. my elation came in the form of a thick, big brown envelope, with the NUS logo in the top left hand corner. YESSA. got into NUS man. and so did tracy and juling. so we'll be going together. woohoo. semester only starts in august...that's like really long.
hmm working tmrw...dunno how long i'll be at this job though. forgot when it is my officer is coming back from maternity leave. haha. but if i'm not needed anymore, i'll probably hafta find another job until semester starts man...save up money. it'll be totally stupid if i can't pay for my school fees. haha.
ok well...shall go sleep early. toodles.
# and so it begins.
23:43
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
i am so fucking tired. really. thanks a lot asshole...for making me stay up the whole night. i appreciate it. so thanks ah.
jeez if you can't sense the sarcasm there...then i really have nothing to say la. but dammit i'm so tired!!! you just had to be all whiny and clingy and talkative didn't you? ya sure...victimise me, the one who has to work the next day!
man, i think i'm really gonna fall asleep right now. shit.
yawn....
14:06
Thursday, April 13, 2006
i don't want to be alone, she says. i just want to get married. i just want to have kids. i just want a family. i'm not getting any younger. he wants to marry me.
to you. don't get married because you should, get married because you want to. don't get married because you have someone, get married because you love someone. marriage is for life, so don't treat it lightly. it's not just a contract binding two people together, it's a vow that nothing will break them apart. it's not just putting down your signatures on a marriage certificate, it's imprinting your mark on another's heart.
marriage is love. and love isn't easy. what makes you think marriage will be easy?
but love is easy. i'm always happy with him. he takes care of me. he loves me. he gives me everything i need. and we've never had a fight. i've never felt so in love in my life.
then you haven't been with him long enough to experience actual love. love is hard. love is tough. love is difficult and it's a real bitch to deal with. it's about sacrifices and learning to accept not only the wonderful things about him. but the bad as well. love involves tears, anger, misery and hate. call me a cynic, but how many couples can actually say that they've fought, hated each other...then hate themselves for hurting each other? realising one's mistakes and admitting to them...seeking forgiveness, and giving forgiveness...that's love.
because let's face it, love hurts. sometimes, it hurts so bad, you can't stand it. and sometimes, it hurts so long, you can hardly feel it. it's just there...a dull throb deep in your heart. because love, and the whole concept of love is fucked up.
and you're fucked up. because you know you've been hurting so long that you think you're happy. it's enough that you feel happy when you're with him...only because you never spend enough time with him. it's enough that he gets everything you want...but is never around often enough to see your smile. it's enough that you think he takes care of you, and loves you...when he's never actually said those three words. and you know it's fucking bullshit. you know i think it's crap.
it's fucked up.
...but i just don't want to be alone.
01:10
Friday, April 07, 2006
argh i CANNOT believe mandisa is out of american idol! that is so stupid. she's waaayy better than the likes of kelly pickler and katherine mcphee. come on...kelly is so step cute la. it gets really irritating after a while. god, she is such an airhead! haha. and katherine's voice is pretty average compared to mandisa.
i was so shocked when i saw the bottom 3. i mean, mandisa, elliot and paris? they're like the better ones who make american idol a competition! i seri0usly thought e bottom 3 would be ace, bucky and katherine. but i was wrong. man...my favourite is out now. makes me wonder what the voters actually look for in an american idol. obviously, it's not talent. gah maybe it's the song choice...i don't know. but seriously, that woman can sing! i'm gonna miss her. haha.
oh well, still rooting for my other favourites. like chris daughtry. haha. i just went to develop my ari wibowo pictures. yay shall collect them after work later. toodles!
# smile at me dad, watcha looking at? lemme see your grillz.
13:15
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
went out with anu on monday and she was sick. so we started joking about how i would get sick too. and i really did! haha. my nose is blocked and my throat is so sore i can't swallow water even. man...this sucks.
hmm anyways we watched this movie called Mad Hot Ballroom...and it was an awesome movie about 11 year old kids who take ballroom lessons then at the end, they compete in a ballroom competition. oh my god, the way they dance...so provocative man...i can hardly believe they're 11! and the topics they speak about...kids, their future, the men they'll marry...what the hell was i doing when i was 11? playing catching...not speaking about what names i'll give my kids. haha.
there was this one boy...wilson i think. he can't speak english much. but oh my god, he is an awesome dancer. and the boys can really shake their asses. i'm so inspired to take dance lessons now. and do the rhumba. or the meringue. haha. feel like watching the movie again.
i think i'm having a fever. my head hurts and i need more tissue. haha. oh well. i can't wait for friday. nenek and cousins are coming to sleep over. yay can't wait to see ameera. haha. oh well...shall try not to fall asleep now. toodles!
# bagai bintang di surga...
14:03
Sunday, April 02, 2006
yay i went to see ari wibowo today! haha. we were supposed to leave the house at 9. but instead we left at 10plus and omg, the queue was damn long. our chance of getting an autograph was gone (only the 1st 100 pple could and there were already like 200plus in the queue?) and so, we decided to go makan first. the event was outside PS, and there was this white tent. the sides of the stage were pretty empty so we decided it was safe to go eat. but when we came back, it got fairly crowded. managed to get a good spot near the stage though. that was at 12pm. and ari wibowo was supposed to come at 2pm. haha. so prepared myself for 2 hours of waiting. in the end only me and the maid stood there. the rest went to sit down and get drinks.
2pm rolled by. and rima melati (who is real pretty) and suzairhe sumari (who is real funny) came on stage. the place was SUPER crowded by then and everyone was pushing and stuff. ari wibowo still hadn't appeared. then 2 of the anugerah boys (khairul anwar and syed azmil) came, but sadly no fauzie! haha. took some pictures of syed azmil who was looking pretty lazy. couldn't be bothered with khairul anwar cos i don like him. haha. the hosts were being dumb and trying to waste more time cos ari wibowo still hadn't showed up by playing stupid games. and the way the contestants carry themselves, it wouldn't surprise me if onlookers decided malay pple are crazy. oh oh this makcik who won Best Fan Award at PESTA PESTA PESTA was there! she was so funny. cos they brought her up on stage and started dancing. man she's a riot. haha.
everyone was getting impatient and it was REALLY hot. felt like i was in a boiler room. and everyone was pushing. but finally at 3pm, ari wibowo arrived!!! (an hour late) he is so cute. and such a nice guy. god i was so amused by the makciks who went I LOVE YOU ARI!! so funny la they all. and the maid got to shake his hand!!! so lucky! got loads of pictures (some clear, some not) of him.
rima melati was such a sweetheart. she actually helped me get a close up shot of ari while he was signing autographs. so nice of her! and it's such a nice picture cos he's looking straight at the camera!!
i got really pissed off at one point cos they were pushing so much that my head banged into the pole of the speaker. and i really wanted to shout "don't push you fuckers!"...but decided not to, cos they were all makciks and there were loads of kids. haha. so i shouted "oi! jangan tolak la!" which means "oi! don't push la!" haha. but they still did.
and some of these people are so stupid. they brought babies and little kids. i mean come on! think about your kids pple. it's sweltering hot, it's the hottest time of the day and there are sooo many pple all squashed together like that...aren't you even considering the safety of your kids? how they might suffocate in the heat? or how they might get lost (a few did) or get squashed? sheesh i know ari wibowo is like WOW but still, kids should come first.
one makcik behind me was carring a baby la. who looked like she wasn't even a year old. and the baby looked like she couldn't breathe la. i was especially pissed off at these makciks behind me with their kids who kept pulling my hair. and this other makcik who pushed her way forward in the pretext of "tak boleh nafas!"..."cannot breathe!" ya right. and the sudden recovery she made when ari wibowo appeared was a miracle!
god, pple can be such idiots.
but anyways, at least i got to see ari wibowo and take his picture, and touch his hand, despite the unbearable heat and irritating bitches makciks. i smile as i write this because i'm thinking of all the curses i could have thrown at makciks ari wibowo. *swoons*
lots of other stuff happened. like the kid who said ari wibowo is handsome, but khairul anwar isn't. THAT was funny. and other stuff i can't really remember now. haha. ok think i'll go look at the pictures again. sigh. oh by the way 30 ooo people turned up to see him. rima melati actually had to tell pple at the mrt station exit (which is NOT near the stage) to not lean against the glass in case it broke. haha ok goodnight!
#ari wibowo. 2pm. plaza singapura. 2 April.
23:10
Saturday, April 01, 2006
hmmm. i can't wait for tmrw. going to plaza sing to see ari wibowo! so exciting. haha. i'm smiling as i type this. and i hope no one thinks i'm nuts. cos i'm at the counter now, (hey blogging is a good way of looking of busy at work ok...i'm SO not skiving. just putting forth a good image for all staff members. haha. bullshit.)
so yes! i'm going to go see ari wibowo. in fact my whole family (minus dad and grandpa) is going. my mom's friend is going with her kids, and my grandma is going too. she's the one who suggested it actually. haha.
yesterday went to this meeting for this multi marketing business thing. you can earn commission from selling these prepaid cards, called SV cards, to other people, and by spending only 20 bucks per month...e 2o bucks can be spent on the prepaid cards, especially for you pple who use your handphone to call others lots. and always exceed your free outgoing calls. haha. it's worth it. cos it'll cost you only 3cents per min with this card, instead of the usual 22cents per min. that's like a seventh of the cost. also outgoing calls to overseas will be cheaper too. and the cost of the call will be deducted from the 20 bucks (or more) you top up in your prepaid card. it's pretty convinient since you can top up on the internet or at any AXS machine.
so anyways, the structure is that, you sell to others, and if these others sell to others, you'll earn more money, cos you can get commission not only from the cards YOU sell but also, from the cards the others sell. and you only have to spend 20 bucks per month. of course the 20 bucks can be spent on other things, like printer ink...for you pple who use your printer a lot and find yourself spending a lot on ink, this is good cos they sell it cheaper too. there's other stuff too, but mainly pple usually top up 20 bucks into the prepaid cards...
so if you're interested in earning some extra cash just through networking, or wanna know more, call my handphone, leave me a tag or sms me.
haha. ok so anyway after that..went shopping with nenek and mommy (the bro and dad just tagged along). nenek bought two pairs of shoes and bought mommy a pair cos she got some extra cash from the govt. haha. and she blew it all on shoes. shopaholic.
ok another hour of work left. yawn. haha. toodles.
#sushi. muffins. cookies. recipes. yum.
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