Tuesday, March 28, 2006
the weekend was fun (minus the 8 hours of work on saturday. work is not fun. it's funNY and weird, sometimes, but never fun. haha.) cos we had a sleepover at aunty's place. family gathering, with my family minus papa and tok, kak ta's family (though only natasha slept over) and of course, aunty's family (duh they live there) and of course nenek.
anyhoo, brought monopoly and poker cards. and can you believe we played until 5 in the morning. of course you can. usually i never sleep at sleepovers...wonder why they called sleepovers, SLEEPovers. haha. i'm rambling. anyway this time monopoly was a bit more challenging because i almost went bankrupt buying property. but after that, i started collecting rent and slowly i got enough cash to buy hotels and (duh) i won again. haha.
then played cards. used powder as punishment for losing. pretty fun. then it was 5am and pple got sleepy. so everyone went to sleep. i just lay there, stoning and suddenly it was 8am and my cute little cousin was jumping on me, getting me to open my eyes. she wakes up real early and bugs everyone for the heck of it. haha.
mommy, bro and maid went home. me, natasha and nenek played cards. and the loose change came out. lost quite a bit. man, i have no luck. went to kak ta's house after...supposed to go shopping but we decided to eat lunch there first. played cards again. this time i made a profit. haha. then went to tamp mall, jalan2...and then went to simpang bedok to makan. the food there isn't that fantastic la. the yellow mee was soggy and the kway teow wasn't yummy. haha.
so that was my weekend. i had a really bad case of monday blues yesterday. i felt so lethargic and depressed. maybe it's lack of sleep. haha. and so on impulse i went into isetan and bought myself a pair of slippers (birkenstock style...though MUCH cheaper) to try to cheer myself up. trying out that whole theory of how shopping can cheer women up...don't know if it worked. i didn't really feel anything. haha. no wonder women spend exorbitant amounts of money on shopping when they're depressed. they have to go on a spree before any HAPPY kicks in. haha.
yesterday's episode of Grey's Anatomy was wonderful. so much drama. haha. they're showing PESTA PESTA PESTA again on friday. haha so funny i think i'll watch it again. oh oh ari wibowo is coming to singapore on sunday (i'm just jumping from topic to topic aren't i? haha.) and my nenek is so excited to meet him. die hard DIA fan! personally, that show was interesting last time...still is now actually (soap operas can actually be gripping) but the episodes now make me so mad that sometimes i think i might actually get a heart attack screaming at Fifi for being such a conniving bitch...or at Eka for being such an asshole to the little girl. and sometimes i have to remind myself that it's not real and no, i can't climb into the TV and kick Susi until she falls down and dies.
haha ok calm down calm down. so DIA is addictive. practically the whole malay community watches it. even my non-malay friends watch it. haha. and it really sucks that it's showing at the same times as Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy.
oh well so it's tuesday. have tuition later. boring. haha. toodlessss..
# if the world keeps spinning round... -Lifehouse
14:08
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
why? after a year, maybe more, free of your bullshit...why do you pull this one on me? i thought i was completely rid of you. you were supposed to have gone on with your life, just like me...why dig up the past again? you always do this. stop it. just fucking stop it. i told you, didn't i? no more mind games. no more pity fests. you can't make me feel sorry for you.
stop with the emails and the calls. stop with the fake tears and the insincere apologies. i'm much happier now. my head is so much clearer. i'm starting to forget. and i don't want to remember all that shit. don't make me confused again. don't come back into my life, trying to be my 'best friend' or my confidante or anything. i don't want anything from you.
so just fuck off and leave me the hell alone.
20:01
Saturday, March 18, 2006
oh crap. just found out i'm an HOUR late for work. turns out i was supposed to be here at 10...and i thought it was 11. crap. and even at 11 i was late...all thanks to delon and his "oh you'll reach there in 30 minutes!" oh and my non existent sense of direction. i got lost in takashimaya AGAIN. and i went to the wrong end or wrong tower or whatever. it took me another 15 minutes to find the library. i am never taking bus again. mrt from now on...and the safe and memorised route from the mrt station to the library. stupid. gah. this day is starting out badly.
anyways yest after work met up with some of the a301 pple. ra, shu, jas, delon and haur shen. hung out at orchard until about 11plus i think...still deciding whether to have a sleepover. supposed to have it at ra's place...but there were only 3 of us. me, ra and delon. so in the end, we slept over at delon's place. haha first time there...cramped like he always says cos they got a lot of stuff. i think he's pretty well off though....i mean his living room has air conditioning and he wastes electricity like nobody's business. haha.
we played monopoly, cards and duh the ultimate must have of a sleepover (where we don't really sleep) is the bitching about other people. of course that's always fun. i think it was 6plus before i got some shut eye. ra wanted to go to the beach cos delon lives across the street from it...but we were too lazy and tired. i needed sleep la. work today...i only got half an hour of sleep, i think? i feel like a zombie now. i still have 6 hours of work...i'm afraid i'll fall asleep. haha.
i'm totally conking out when i reach home later. *yawn* ok time to be a good customer service officer. toodles...
# shut the fuck up, she said. i'm going fucking deaf. you're always too loud.
11:33
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
went to nus open house the other day. hopefully i can get in to the uni...where else can i go? haha. i dread the day the results of our applications come out. what if i don't make it? it's like a level results all over again...except there's no clear path as to what to do if i don't make it. i mean if i did badly for a levels, i would have taken the exams again as a private candidate. but now...if i don make it to uni...what am i supposed to do? decisions are hard to make, especially if it's about the future, and sometimes i wish i was a kid again...where right and wrong was separated by praise and punishment from an adult. but life isn't that simple. praise and punishment now are disguised as crossroads in life. and we don't have someone to tell us if it's right or wrong. sigh.
you really get a new perspective on things...same environment but different position. now that i'm working, i really get a sense of how things are for the people who answer our questions, and carry out our requests (sometimes demands)...to be on this side of the counter can be sometimes an enriching, and sometimes a dreadful experience. but the good thing is, i get to meet all sorts of people and personalities, some nice and some...not so nice...but not everyone can be a saint. i guess this job was a good thing...to prepare myself for the people i'd meet in future. and how to deal with them. haha.
on a sidenote, i think monopoly is the greatest game to have ever been invented. it is an amazing family game...and i keep winning when i play with my family. my grandma is especially competitive in this game. haha. she wouldn't stop the game even though it was 3 in the morning because she wanted to recover her losses. i ended up owning the bank and like most of the city. haha. but it is a great game. i love it.
well i'll stop here. there's nothing much to say, really...life is so uninteresting. blegh. haha. toodles.
# leave love bleeding in my hands, in my hands, again...
19:45
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
hmm life is so boring right now. watched american idol just now and mandisa just blew me away man. her voice is just fantastic and i loved her performance. man i wish i could sing like that. haha. i can't wait for the guys' performances tmrw. i love chris daughtry. he's cute and he can totally sing. and chicken little! aiyoh so adorable la! haha. and gedeon and his big huge smile. heh.
hmmm all the universities' open houses are this weekend. but duh i'm only going for the nus one. haha what would i do at smu or ntu man? hope i can get into my course.
oh oh! i enrolled for driving. like FINALLY. let's hope i pass my basic theory test. it would NOT be a good sign if i didn't. haha.
on a side note, jose mourinho is so bitter about the match. bye bye chelsea. heh.
# the undomestic goddess.
21:46
Saturday, March 04, 2006
there was a lady who didn't seem to understand certain policies we had. more like, she had a problem with them. and what could i do, right? all i could do was stand there and tell her, sorry but this is our policy.
but then there was a nice lady today. a foreigner. she wanted to get a card, but only had cash. and we don't accept cash. but i was extremely surprised in a pleased way, that this other lady in line offered to pay using NETS. it's nice to see that locals are able to lend a helping hand, instead of the usual 'i-don't-give-a-damn' attitude. i must admit, i am guilty of it. but only when it comes to people at orchard asking for donations. haha. the foreigner was so polite, that i was happy to help her find a book, show her how to borrow books and use her card and stuff.
sometimes a perfect stranger can dampen your mood. but another may brighten up your day. thank god the whole world isn't evil. if it was, none of us would exist today. and duh, no one would work in customer service. heh.
# for me, for you, for all the things we've been through.
01:54
Thursday, March 02, 2006
falls on me- fuel
I've seen you hangin' round
starting to swear about this black hole you've dug for me
and silently within hands touchin skin
the shock breaks my disease and i can breath
and all of your weight
all you dream falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you bring
falls on me
it falls on me ahha
your faith like the pain
it draws me in again
she washes all my wounds for me
darkness in my veins
I never could explain
and i wonder if you ever see
will you still believe
and all of your weight
and all that you dream
falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you bring
falls on me
it falls on me
am I that strong
to carry on
i might change your life
I might save my world
could you save me ahhhhha
and all of your weight
all you dream
falls on me
it falls on me
and you beautiful sky
the light you bring
falls on me
it falls on me
and all of your weight
all you dream falls on me
it falls on me
and your beautiful sky
the light you bring
falls on me
it falls on me
ahhhhaha yea ahhhah yea
thank you god.
22:24
