Wednesday, November 30, 2005
suddenly, i'm wishing for school. at least there's something to do, even if i keep complaining about it. me, juling and caroline were talking yesterday about exams ending and everything.
and just how bored we are now that there's nothing to do. we kept making all these plans...like getting a job, or going on holiday, stuff like that. but now that it's time to do all those things...we're just...not. haha. no wonder we're bored to death. and so the only option is to go out.
or if you're too tired of going out like i am, blog about something. haha.
i've gone out like many days in a row. and e past two days, stayed out till late. and i'm running out of cash. job, job...i need a job. haha.
i watched tons of movies.
1. harry potter and the goblet of fire. (juz watched it yest. slow, i know. it's pretty cool. lots of action. and cedric is hot. haha. too bad he died.)
2. prime (funny show. but anti climax la e ending.)
3. the exorcism of emily rose (kickass movie. must watch)
4. just like heaven (ok la...sweet movie. haha. typical romance stuff.)
5. sky high (e guy who controls fire is HOT. haha.)
and now i'm broke. haha. and i still wanna watch other movies. like...CHICKEN LITTLE! haha. can't wait.
oh well...shall go watch some dvd or something. boreeeeddddd....
oooh ooooh prom's in 4 days! so exciting. whee.
20:34
Thursday, November 24, 2005
You are the sun. I am the moon.
The light you give, the heat you bring. The life you breathe into all you see. You are the warmth we need when all seems lost, when all seems bleak, when the cold envelops us, a void. You are warm and bright, constantly making a scene a pleasant sight. You shine on us like a beam of hope. For you are the sun.
But I am the moon. A light so bright yet so fake, a mask to hide the pain and sorrow. A light so cold, so bitter, so untouchable. An eerie light, a stolen light. An emotional wall around me, that with time, you break, but I'll never let myself fall so deeply, and my walls will come back up. Untouchable, unfeeling, alone...alone. For I am the moon.
You are the sun. I am the moon.
You are the reason I live. Without you, I do not exist. Without you, my light is extinguished. And I feel no guilt for taking away your light, greedily, hungrily. But I can never take your warmth, my light is cold...I cannot take your warmth. Without you, I am nothing. I am useless, I am dead. You are the reason for life, the laughter, the joy, the happiness. I am the reason for death, the tears, the depression, the hate. Nobody cries to you. Nobody looks at you and feels sadness, tears flowing and hearts breaking.
For you are the sun. And I am the moon.
You are a constant presence in my life, in our lives. Always there, bright and lovely, for all to see. I am in the background, only appearing when all is quiet and still. Everyone and everything revolves around you, and I follow, helpless, just pulled. Resentment and jealousy are feelings I do not know, for I go willingly with them. You are the reason I survive after all.
You are the sun. And I am the moon.
We are different, you and I. In so many ways, and yet the bond between us is unbreakable. You are surrounded by freedom and happiness. But I am surrounded by darkness and false hopes. When you fall, I wait for you to rise again. And when I fall, you wait for me to rise again. We do not help each other, it is an unspoken agreement between us, because we are strong, and we would never give up. Not on ourselves, not on each other. For they all depend on us.
Because you are the sun. And I am the moon.
I accept our given roles. I accept the hidden gap between us, the differences we have. I accept I need you. But I now know I am as important as you are. You may give them warmth, happiness, hope, but I give them the outlet for their sadness, frustration, grief. And you may ask, which is more important? And I will ask you, how can you hope when you think it does not exist? And I know you will not have the answer for it. Ultimately, I know you need me as much as I need you.
For you are the sun. And I am the moon.
03:57
Thursday, November 17, 2005
oh others born in the month of november i must must wish.
happy birthday to...
LINDA, KAK IDA,
THEODORA, KAK LIN,
UNCLE AZMI, PRIYANKA,
DANIAL, MAMA SITI,
KAK NINI AND CAROLINE!
yay november babies of the world unite! hahaha.
22:08
i'm 18 today...man am i getting old...hmph.
thanks to all my lovely friends, relatives, teachers, etc. for all the birthday wishes. so nice of you guys. i feel special. *twirls around in girlish delight* even geog exam couldn't dampen my mood. whee.
tracy my dear, thanks for the HANDMADE flowers! i am impressed with your skills. *you're so cool!* haha. it's so *romantik-a*. heh.
juling, tracy i had greaaat fun today. bumping into 2 teachers in one day, that MUST be a record. haha. and i especially LOVED LOVED LOVED our neoprints!!!! tracy, you and your intense look of concentration. hahahahaha. i'm looking at it now. *pause to laugh*
went to west coast to makan today!!! yay soup kambing rocks my socks. and i had mutton chop as usual...and to top it all off...YUMMY sugarcane juice!!! i love west coast. haha.
then went to my aunty's house. and my grandma gave me a present. shiny shiny bag for prom. kinda expected it la...cos she kept talking about getting me one. but so cool. i love my nenek!
got money of course. haha. yay for birthdays.
it was my mommy's birthday yesterday. it's cool right? i want my kid to have his/her birthday on the 18th. so we can one huge party. even tho my mommy doesn't read my blog (hope she doesn't as least. haha)...just wanted to say happy belated birthday.
oooh colourful colourful entry. i'm happy. haha. i will see some of you tomorrow for LIT EXAM. blegh. and on sat at my place!
# when. they. hurt. you. they. hurt. me. too. - T.A.T.U. (especially for you tracy!)
21:52
Saturday, November 05, 2005
SELAMAT HARI RAYA everyone! haha.
wow. this past few days have been hectic. and fun too actually. preparations for hari raya always make me high...cos it's fun getting the house cleaned with my mom and maid. we blasted the radio, and the radio station was playing hari raya songs, so we were all in the mood. haha. oh man hanging up curtains is such a pain but in the end, all worth it, cos it's nice la.
aniwaes on wednesday, we went to geylang. last day before hari raya. and we went at 2am...but it was still PACKED. really REALLY packed. they even had policemen stationed everywhere cos there were too many people. despite it all, i loved it. i loved the atmosphere, the sounds, the crowd, the cute mats...haha. it just rocked. walked around for about 2 hours and it was STILL crowded when we left. WOW. i love hari raya.
the day finally came. went to my aunty's house first cos my grandma was there. she cooked nasi briyani and it was fantastic. even i, e one who doesn't like it, ate it cos she's an awesome AWESOME cook. haha. i love my nenek.
had to go back home cos my father's side relatives were coming. my father's side is huge la. he's got 10 brothers and sisters and most of them are married. and have children. one of which has her own children. so you can imagine my tiny house was full. haha. but it was fun. around 5 i think, all of us went to jalan raye. yay.
went to my aunty's house again cos everyone wanted to see my grandma. then went to a whole bunch of other houses, don really know who they are, but they're related to my father's side somehow. i think their uncles or something. so so so MANY houses la...i was dead tired. and got really full on kueh and drinks. haha.
and oh! my brother broke my nice shoes! i was pretty pissed off. it's those heels that you can just slip your feet into...and it was really nice. he stepped on the back while i was walking and the strap broke. i was so mad cos i had to drag one foot. it was such a pain.
it was around midnight when we visited the last house. my mom's cuz's house...and i got to eat ayam masak merah, specialty of her mom (whom i call nenek wok). ah yummy.
whoa ate so much laaa. but who cares la. it was too tempting. haha. by the time i got home, i was totally shagged.
it's considered saturday now i guess, seeing how it's already 2am. haha. aniwaes went to buy new shoes to compensate for the dead *sob* ones. it's for prom too...and it's actually pretty nice. heels are higher. dunno how i'm gonna walk. haha.
aniwaes around 10 or 11 just now, my aunty and my mom's cuz came. and the usual la...talk talk, eat eat, blah blah. haha.
did i mention i love hari raya? haha.
ok soon will upload the photos from the past few days, cos my cuz will just kill me if i don send it to her. haha. and i'll post some on my blog too!
all the fun aside, there's like 5 days left to exams! *GASP* so i shall be a good girl and study now! byeeeee!!!
# selamat hari raya, kepada saudara serta saudari. - think Saloma sang it. haha.
02:22
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
HAPPY DEEPAVALI!
haha. went to orchard yesterday...man was it crowded! aniwaes me and mommy went to look for my prom top. ya ya, think about prom when exams are like 8 days away. ahhh! haha. aniwaes we reached around 6 and walked around. went to far east, ck tang, then by that time going to be break fast time...but there was like no place to sit at all la! so in e end, we just bought a drink and fries and went to walk around some more.
it was like 9 by the time i found a nice top. and it's not red! there are like zero decent red tops in orchard. the top i got was purplish red la. haha. and yay my prom outfit is complete!! (minus e shoes and various accessories) then we ate. i was so hungry at that point that i wasn't even hungry anymore...and i only realised i was hungry when i smelled delifrance. haha.
man i was so tired by e time i got home. shopping really does the energy out of you. *half dead*
now i'm watching some tv special on suria. it's quite nice. yay 2 more days to hari raya. the host is funny...forgot how to spell his name...suzairhe sumari? haha. i donno la...but he's lame.
ah shall go watch e show now. byeee.
14:54
