today was a perfect day with a fucked up ending. e perfect part i'll blog about another day when i'm feeling less pissed.
god i hate that asshole.
i fucking HATE him.
life was so much more peaceful for that few days. and now...
sometimes i wish i were dead. i wish i didn't exist. he is truly one person who makes me feel like my life has no meaning. and i feel so fucking empty. so fucking useless.
the most intense hate just for him. and right now i can't even see the computer screen properly. everything is juz so blurry.
fall you fucking tears, fall.
right now i wanna scream so bad. so fucking bad. scream at him, that is. for making my life so fucking miserable.
i feel all this pressure on me. for me to do well in my block tests, a levels, life. but i suppose most of that pressure comes from myself. because the only way i can escape this shithole of a life is to be successful. i HAVE to do well.
"it's ok to suffer now. but when you're big, he will be the one to suffer." -such insightful words.
# fear breeds hate.
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the girl.
Sufi
Family is my heart
Friends are my oxygen
Having fun is my passion
Music is my soul
