Thursday, March 31, 2005
dis is officially one of the WORST weeks ever. and it hasn't even ended. gah.
how fucked up can this get?
reason for my moaning and whining you ask?
block tests...the results.
aww crap.
emotions were running high during econs tutorial. we were all either depressed or pissed. or both. dis is really fucked up. really really fucked up.
and of course we had to be constantly reminded this whole week dat if we continue this way, we will definitely not make it. we'll be the future losers of society, the unwanted, blah blah blah.
whoopdeefuckingdo.
some teachers are juz so amazingly encouraging you know. REALLY. i feel so...motivated when they teach that it takes all my energy to prevent myself from cheering in class. so when you see my blank face in class, it really IS my attempt to mask the excitement and enthusiasm i feel from learning all these fabulous things.
really.
oh. got back our paper 4 for lit as well. shit. need i say more?
and gp. wow. juz bloody FANTASTIC. really. *proceeds to hang self*
tmrw is geog. wonder if i passed or failed.
the vines...the cure to a fucking horrible day. during a concert, the guitar string of the bass guitarist 's bass snapped and the lead singer got angry. and he started swinging his mike around, hitting the bass guitarist in the face. and then they found out the lead singer had a brain disorder. yah. i haf no idea why i said that.
# I wanna get free, I wanna get free, I wanna get free, ride into the sun. -The Vines
23:26
Saturday, March 26, 2005
yesterday was a fantastic day. would have blogged about it yesterday but i came home ard 3 am and so freaking tired i just crashed. haha.
aniwaes. went out wif dee and anu! we were supposed to meet at 1030am. but because of a certain someone...we ended up meeting at lyke 1130? 12? i dunno. haha so aniwaes we went to eat at popeye's! yay. dey lyke changed e set meals...ya ate den couldn't finish e fries cos dere was sooo much. haha.
went to orchard and reached lido juz in time for ms congeniality 2!! oh man it is an AWESOME movie. we were laughing our hearts out and i laughed till my stomach hurt and i choked on my popcorn once or twice i think. oh man it was so damn FUNNY la!!!!! i think it was way better den e first one too. it is a MUST-SEE!!! serious. i love sandra bullock...she's one hell of an actress. i dun tink dere ever was a movie which sucked wif her in it. kudos.
yep. den anu had to leave early. AGAIN. and missed out on our bugis trip. it was fuunnn. haha. i bought a new bag. and a new pencil box. and e pple dere are so nice. e shopkeepers rock. u can talk to dem lyke you've known them for years or something. and dearest dee was my spokesperson of sorts, bargaining for me. and FLIRTING wif e shopkeeper. haha. it was so funny. haha.
yep. den walked around and we found anu dis feather earrings. it was lyke 4 bucks. compared to e ones she bought dat dae ($9.90...total ripoff) and e guy was so nice. and smile-y. haha.
we din wanna eat durian at first but we passed by e durian shop and it was so tempting we juz gave in. hahaha ah mao was dere!! and omg! dee doesn't only haf ah mao interested in her...she's got e whole crew into her! the towkay!!! he knows her name la. helloooo. dey so totally dig her. hahahhaa. it was so funny. we even got the table rite in front of the shop so e towkay could open the durian for us! haha hilarious la. and he's lyke super rich. had dis diamond studded rolex. woah.
we could not eat our durians in peace. cos ah mao kept staring at dee. haha and i was seated so that i was facing his directions. so obviously i noticed rite. haha. den dis whole group of korean tourists came and WATCHED us eat durians....as if we're part of their tour or something. it was juz...freaky. haha and disturbing. and dis one woman was lyke practically leaning over me to see me eat e durian. i was on e verge of standing up and offering her one. haha. so stupid la.
ya so we ate durian den left. met anu again at tamp after her tuition. went starbucks and we talked about funny stuff. yeah. den went home la. den met my fren ard 12 or something for a little while. and came home again. sheesh.
and slept. i had e funniest dream ever. besides e cursing at someone on e bus thing. (haha tracy and jules, u noe who i'm talking abt!) tracy! call me...i'll tell u all abt it. u'll roll on the floor in laughter. hahaha.
yep. today we had steamboat at my mom's cuz place! oh b4 dat had tuition and i was so PISSED off at stupid tutee. cos she din do her hw which she had lyke 3 days to do. and it was only 5 freaking problems la. sheesh. stupid girl.
e steamboat was fun though. i love doing e whole table bbq ting. heh. i prefer cooking more den eating e stuff actually. it's fun. but i smelled of whatever i cooked after that. haha.
yah aniwaes. i want animax. i really really really want animax. but my parents refuse. grr.
well sch on mon. means another two days of rest. yay.
# marvellous indie rock and roll, is what i want,
it's in my soul, it's what i need. - the killers.
01:32
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
the rain falls, the drops hitting my skin,
yet, i am numb to the feel of them on me,
the lightning flashes, illuminating the sky,
yet, i am blind to what the sight before me,
the thunder roars, loud and frightening,
yet, i am deaf to the sounds around me,
the smell of rain fills my nostrils,
yet, i am immune to the scent of it,
the raindrops fall on my lips and i taste it,
yet, i am unable to taste anything.
you stand there, shaking uncontrollably,
and i feel the cold that you feel,
the tears roll down your face, mixing with raindrops,
and i see the emotions swirling in your eyes,
you scream and sob,
and i hear the pain and anger in your voice,
you stand closer to me, seeking my warmth,
and i smell the scent that can only be you,
and we take the leap, hand in hand,
and i taste the blood in my mouth,
just before we say our last goodbyes.
together forever, from here to eternity,
goodbye dear world, now it'll be just you and me.
02:21
Friday, March 18, 2005
dear friends,
i apologise for the entries i made yesterday. i suppose i wasn't in the right frame of mind. but since then i've calmed down and am totally ready to blog about my perfect day (minus fucked up ending) yesterday!
yay!
well let's see. first i had lit tutorial. which only four from our claz turned up for. haha. plus e girls frm s401. yes aniwaes it was ok. den i went to dee's houz cos we're s'posed to go out. yes finally she's moved back to pasir ris. yay. hung out dere for a while and left to go town.
we went to far east and dee showed me the shoes she wanted. it looks lyke a pair of shoes out of the good charlotte vid, "predictable". yep. which is pretty cool.
ate at cahaya restaurant. and e pple dere are so...interesting. dere were two women sitting next to us talking about plastic surgery and how one of them was going for tummy tuck soon. yah. den dere was dis mat who dee was facing who was being a total idiot.
"mountain also got dew wat." - in ref to the drink mountain dew.
and when dey wanted to place their orders, e aunty said "one second ar". and stupid mat said...
"eh aunty. one second already!"
yes and apparently he cheered when the drinks came. haha.
den we went to taka and looked at more shoes. showed me her soccer shoes-like shoes, which she insists is totally different from each other. heh. den ate my fav taka ice cream and walked around some more.
and suddenly. as we were on the escalator, we caught sight of durians. and suddenly. we started craving for it. so we went to cold storage and saw they were selling durians but we din wan supermarket durians. so we were sitting on the steps, wondering where we could go. after too much time, we decided to go bugis to eat durian.
*this is the most humorous part yet! (right dee?)
yah we went to this durian place at bugis village. den we bought 3 packets of durian for 10 bucks. here's how e conversation btw dee and durian man (DM for short) went.
(in chinese by e way)
dee: we wanna eat here. (i believe her sentence structure was wrong so e guy corrected her)
dm: oh ok. you want one box free?
dee: eh? your boss won't scold one ar?
dm: aiyah won't la.
dee: uh...ok.
of course dee was quite FLOORED by his uber KIND actions. and den as we were sitting down, he called out to her and asked...
dm: what's your name ar?
dee: diyana.
hahahaha i was quite amused by this. dm soooo totally likes dee. why else would he be so interested? dee kept insisting he flirts wif every girl dere. but i kept teasing her about him liking her. hehehe.
soo funny. aniwaes we took pictures of e durian and us eating durian. and e best part was when we were leaving.
dm: leaving already ar?
dee: yah.
dm: tmrw you coming to see me? (see see see!!! he totally digs her!! yes he does dee!)
dee: huh?
dm: tmrw come and see me la.
and she laughs.
dee: what's your name aniwaes?
dm: aiyah juz call me ah mao.
and bye bye bye.
ah mao, man, you really made my day!!! haha it was so funny!! dee, quick go on a date wif ah mao. u can be a durian tai tai. hahahahhaha. so going to see him today?? hehe.
ok den after dat we went to look at the stuff dere. i love bugis village. dey haf a whole range of nightmare before christmas stuff! and dey haf dis handphone pouch in e form of a coffin. uber cool.
and dey haf millions of bags dere. will go dere to buy.
ok gotta go off for tution now. byeee~
# you are invited to ah mao and ah dee's wedding. durian will be provided. wahaha.
13:41
Thursday, March 17, 2005
my insides feel like it's being twisted around,
my feelings are so fucking hard to understand,
my life's juz miserable and i juz can't hide,
the pain, the anger, the hate inside.
fall you fucking tears, just fall,
lessen the pain wrenching at my heart,
fall you fucking tears, just fall,
i can't keep all these feelings bottled inside.
i think i might just have a breakdown,
if i don't let these fucking tears out,
damn my pride, and damn the anger,
tears collecting, vision is blur.
fall you fucking tears, just fall,
lessen the anger burning in my soul,
fall you fucking tears, just fall,
before i become numb and cold.
23:06
today was a perfect day with a fucked up ending. e perfect part i'll blog about another day when i'm feeling less pissed.
god i hate that asshole.
i fucking HATE him.
life was so much more peaceful for that few days. and now...
sometimes i wish i were dead. i wish i didn't exist. he is truly one person who makes me feel like my life has no meaning. and i feel so fucking empty. so fucking useless.
the most intense hate just for him. and right now i can't even see the computer screen properly. everything is juz so blurry.
fall you fucking tears, fall.
right now i wanna scream so bad. so fucking bad. scream at him, that is. for making my life so fucking miserable.
i feel all this pressure on me. for me to do well in my block tests, a levels, life. but i suppose most of that pressure comes from myself. because the only way i can escape this shithole of a life is to be successful. i HAVE to do well.
"it's ok to suffer now. but when you're big, he will be the one to suffer." -such insightful words.
# fear breeds hate.
22:22
Friday, March 11, 2005
i'm all alone at home now. so bored.
aniwaes. replies to e tags at my tagboard.
(lala) thanx...i had help from a fren...e template la. haha.
(kayjal) hahaha welcome back! oh really? my fren told me it ROCKS TO THE MAX! haha.
(tracy> hiii! yep yep broadband...but ur comp so many viruses and funny stuff la. so sad. haha.
(andi) hey! haha yep pink...i love ya too girl!
(passer-by) yep hitch is such a cool movie. and will smith is so hot! haha.
ah ok. done. haha.
speaking of will smith...i love his new song! SWITCH! i love e music vid...it really rocks. go listen pple...
today kinda sucked. i felt so tired. and i dunno why. got back econs drq test and lit essay. both sucked to the max. fuck la.
last day of sch. j1s were so damn noisy...but can understand la. mite be e laz time dey ever see each other. kinda reminds me of my 1st 3 mths claz. i miss dem. i still rem everyone came to sch on e laz dae of sch. den we left super early. heh.
block tests coming. in abt a week's time. dammit. gotta study man.
i'm feeling so freaking dead. somebody kill me.
# the trouble with love is, it can tear you up inside.
22:07
Monday, March 07, 2005
it feels lyke a bunch of gremlins are chewing up my insides...juz gnawing away...and spitting it back up. and stepping on it. den chewing it again and spitting again and stepping again.
heeeelllpppp.
19:25
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
ah k i noe my blog's been a bit dead. haha.
but but but. today is such a blogworthy day!!! haha. why why why??
because i watched HITCH!!!
oh man it is such a cool movie. so sweet and romantic. and sooo funny. haha. i laughed so much. but dere were e sad moments too. but aniwaes. will smith is so hot. and so funny. *swoons*
aniwaes i went wif tracy. and omg we were bitching so much. haha. loved it. ate at kfc even tho during gp we were talking abt e disgusting ways dey made e stuff dey sell at kfc. heh. we were lyke ewwww during gp but yummmm wen we were eating it. haha.
den watched e movie la. awwww. so nice. YOU SO HAF TO WATCH IT. i would say more but *some* pple would juz kill me if i revealed the story. will smith is juz so sweet la. *sigh* date doctor. woot~
hmm...laz wk lots and lots of birthdays.
so happy belated birthday to e following pple...
dee, sean, tracy, kak ta, liza, andi and adibah!!!
yep. heh.
updated list of movies i wanna watch...
1. ms congeniality 2
2. lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events
3. ray
4. howl's moving castle
5. spongebob squarepants movie
ahh. so many nice movies. so little money. call me call me if u wanna watch. heh.
is it juz me or are econs lectures becoming longer and longer? e minutes juz DRAG on by. when i think at least half an hour has passed by...i look at e clock and only 5 freaking minutes has passed. it's killing me. the voice is killing me. killing killing killing me. ahhh. help.
haha. i'm a bit demented and high rite now. muz be from watching hitch or something. or maybe i'm juz tired. lack of sleep lack of sleep...cos e thunder laz nite was sooo freaking loud. soo sooooo loud. haha.
i keep repeating my words. sheesh. so dumb. so dumb. hahahah. retarded. ok i'm rambling now. oh dat reminds me of south park. *rabble rabble rabble* hahaha. i'm not making any sense!!!! i need help. hahahaha.
guess it's juz one of those days la.
ok bye bye bye.
# i couldn't tell you why she felt that way, she felt it everyday.
21:56
