Sunday, October 31, 2004
I turned away. All my respect for Father was gone. The saviour I had imagined for so long was a phony. I felt more angry at him than I did at Mother.
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I came to despise the neighbours, my relatives and anybody else who had ever known me and the conditions under which I lived. Hate was all I had left.
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You are a nobody! An It! You are nonexistent! You are a bastard child! I hate you and I wish you were dead! Dead! Do you hear me? Dead!
=A Child Called 'It'=
-Dave Pelzer-
22:33
please look at me.
don't be angry with me.
i'm sorry...
don't say you're sorry...you always say sorry...it always happens again...
i mean it this time...i do...please don't ignore me anymore...
i promise i'll listen...i promise i'll be better...i promise...i'm sorry...
why must you always make me worry? why are you so......
stupid. childish. immature. idiotic. fucked up. a total failure.
was dat running through your mind? it definitely was in mine. i'm sorry...i'm sorry...i'm sorry...all i can say is i'm sorry...
i know i've hurt her badly. very, very badly. i don't know what i'm supposed to do now. i can't undo wat i did...i can't take back wat i said. i wish she would forgive me. i wish...
i don't know.
22:20
how apt eh?
You're a "Black Angel" which means your
an Angel of Death. You don't really care much
about people (and if you do, it's just a few)
sinceno one was particularly nice to you. You're always
alone unless forced to be with other people and
you love to cause trouble. You feel depressed a
lot and don't have someone that could cheer you
up like most people but probably something
else. You love to be alone to think and like
the night because it provides solitude which
makes you a very logical person. You're very
secretive. (if you cannot see the pics, go near
the bottom of my homepage and find your result.
look closely to make sure your look in the
right place)
What Color Angel Are You? (ANIME PICS)
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14:14
Saturday, October 30, 2004
Everyone remembers the 'faked-orgasm-in-a-deli'
sequence from your kind of movie When Harry Met
Sally. It seems that you're falling for a buddy
or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of
having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now. You know what they say, it's
better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.
What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
22:59
sylvester!!!!!! so crazy... 
yesyesyesyes! i went for the s'pore idol ting at heeren. and yes i acted lyke a crazy fan screaming taufik and sylvester's names! wahaha...couldn't help it...everyone was doing e same so i was motivated to do e same. oh man i love taufik! so cute! hhahahaha...
took lots of pics. on my yahoo! photos...but not all cos not enuff space. haha but nvm it's all on my comp. so long as it dun crash *cross fingers* it'll be fine. haha...
aniwaes after e ting i felt pretty high...and dat sapped all my energy away. took bus home and i was so tired. thank god e bus was pretty empty. and quiet. while haruka kanata was blasting away in my ears....i read dave pelzer's THE LOST BOY again. i can never find dat book boring no matter how many times i've read it. and i was so tired and hungry dat i cried when i read it. hahahaha...lyke i said thank god e bus was pretty empty...and i was sitting at e back. so it was ok. it really are books lyke this which make me realise how lucky i am to haf what i haf...
my family, my friends.......
haiz...oh wells...shall go watch e repeat of s'pore idols now. tata.
"did i mention taufik is so cute? lol."
20:47
taufik and sylvester!!! ahhh! wahaha...
20:47
ahhh taufik!!! sooo cute lah. hahaha...
20:46
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
ahh din go school today. i actually got sick. my throat as i've told tracy feels lyke it's being scratched out. blegh. aniwaes yest only came home around 11 cos had dat video conference ting wif hatboro hortsham high.
it would prob haf been more interesting if it weren't so formal. aniwaes...turns out everyone had to speak. dammit. me, tracy, lionel, sufyan, jia zhao and ming yan were in e 1st group to talk to e americans. haha so funny...sufyan did most of e talking...i was too lazy to say anything...and i was kinda irritated wif dis guy called CHRIS from e other side. cute but so fucking condescending lah...haha...
sat dere for lyke 2 hours...it was interesting some parts...den others i started stoning. some of dem looked lyke actresses/actors. christina ricci(dis sort of goth lookin girl), louis from even stevens(chris), ross(!!) from friends/tom green, tracy's warren cheswick, blah blah blah...hahahaha...
on e way dere we (me, joel, caroline n maril) tried to play dai dee..but got headache. so diff to play. den on e way back, me, delon, sean and lionel tried to play. headache again. hahahaha...lionel introduced us to dis game where u take a card each. dun see e card and hold it up for everyone else to see. den put down and see which is e smallest card. den gotta do forfeit. haha...lionel got forfeit first round and he insisted it was juz a demo.. hahahaha...lamelame.
oh yah...before we went...we played murderer for lyke almost 2 hours? hahahha...fun lah...e funniest and most cheapo round was probably when delon was e murderer and he knew haur shen was e detective. and he did a machine gun winking ting. hahahahhaha! lame lah...and jules was always e first to die. dunno why man...hahaahhaha....
kay ar...shall go do something else now. bored. toodles.
"dai dee, murderer, stress. cards for kids, crazy cards."
19:46
Monday, October 25, 2004
let's see...
i shall start by blogging abt my day yesterday. wat a draining/tiring day. wahlau.
it was ok at first. had pw meeting(seems to be happenin every sunday now. lol)...s'posed to meet at 10 den changed to 1030 cos ameera woke up late. butbut i got e sms dat ameera was gonna be late when i woke up...which was 10. heheheh...overslept lah wat to do. so quickly bathe and everythin...den my dad sent me to jules' houz. thot delon was gonna be e earliest AGAIN (shocking!) but in e end i bumped into ameera at e void deck and we reached dere earlier den him! wow...he came lyke a few min later cos he waited veryvery long for e 28 bus.
yep so aniwaes haruka kanata was on repeat mode for lyke 30-45 min? i only stopped it cos i din wan my batt to die. haha...man i love dat song. haha. aniwaes slacked around...did a bit of pw...den played dai dee...i had zero luck on dat dae. kept losing. played STRESS too...wahlau cannot make it sia. i was so slow. LOSELOSELOSE only...hahahha...ameera was the champion man!
dere was a showdown between delon and ameera. it was a draw in the end. 2-2. hahahha...and of course, delon being e cocky bastard he is, started bragging about his "pro-ness" and how his reflexes were damn fast. blah dee blah blah...*stone*
yep so after dat, we played MONOPOLY! man i love dat game! haha...i had lyke no property man. veryvery little. i onli had 3 train stations and lyke one piece of property. delon had e most property...and he was lyke so damn bankrupt at first. den suddenly...he turned out to be e richest amongst all of us in the long run. wahaha...econs man econs...dey all kept ending up in jail, esp delon and ameera....hahahhaa criminal record ar...
hMm ameera went off den me, jules and delon played WORMS. so sad i couldn't stay longer cos relatives coming over....so ard 4-5...had to go off ready...so me and delon went off. man can he talk...started bragging about his reflexes again and related an incident where he caught his hp wif his amazing skills. whatever man. i tink e conversation was lyke dis...
delon: "blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah....."
sufi: oh. k.
delon: "...blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah..."
sufi: hmm...ok.
you get e picture. hahahhaha...
yep so after i went home...my relatives(dad's side) came. man...aunties are so irritating. and soooo loud. i tink my eardrums burst or sumthin. nosynosynosy. kept asking me abt exams, grades, school, boyfriends, losing weight, etc. oh man...can die lah. after 5 minutes of extreme torture, i was ready to jump down the building. headache sia. i felt lyke a criminal being interrogated. sheesh. e whole day was lyke dat...den had to entertain my little cuzs summore....haiyo...
thankfully, a ray of light shone on my dark, dull day.
AMEERA *angelic voices singing*
my aunt (mom's side) came...and ameera was so cuteeee!!!! i love ameera!!!! she squealed when she saw me and i was so happy to see her! and she was so cute...sang SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS...cos she saw my postcard which had spongebob. oh man.......i love ameera!! i love ameera!! i love babies...and my mom's cuz is 7 months pregnant too!!!
can't wait. baby boy!!
oh wells...dat was my day yesterday. today of course had school. haahha mite as well not come man. had double malay (blegh) in the morning den slacked at e benches from lyke 9.20 till 12+?? hahahha...geog was miserable, pathetic. e LT was so damn empty ar...sooooo pathetic. hahahhaa...and e 3 guys skipped. their absence was noticed. hahahha...
hmm so after dat went to e canteen. played dai dee wif delon's extremely huge cards. according to lionel and jules...blind oso can see. delon got so many weird cards lah...but e best is e deck his sis bought from australia. dat one was damn coooool sia but diff to play wif. and sooo expensive...if i had e deck, i would keep it at home in a glass casing or sumthin. hahahhaa...i won a lot too. hahaha...got luck ar today. sean, unforch..............haiz. hahha..
kay so had dry run during pw today. it was ok. tho i laughed in e middle cos i looked at sean. he was smiling. so i started smiling. den he smiled even wider. den i started laughing. damn you sean! *slapslap* actually tracy too...next to sean. she was smiling too. cld not control my laughter. sheesh.
jules, delon and tracy came over to my houz...supposed pw. but we wanted to watch a movie. haha delon got stomachache so left lyke 5 min later. dumb. haha...we watched dodgeball (obviously pirated)...it's so damn funny ar. dat ben stiller...limited sia his vocab. hahahhha...funnyfunny.
Note to Tracy and Jules:
and yes...i will haf to watch my step from now on...veryvery dangerous. *scaryeyes* mite get me anytime. you too jules. and soon enough you too, tracy. hahahahha...tracy!!! avenge us if ur still alive!!!
oh yes.
2-0
Man U pressed on and broke arsenal's 49 straight wins. ruud finally got his revenge and rooney proved why he's a rising soccer star.
GLORY, GLORY MAN UNITED! nv doubted you for a second. held on to e hope dat u are e best team ever!
"GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED!" wahaha!
19:41
Saturday, October 23, 2004
thanks to sean for all e wonderful jap songs u sent me. amazing stuff. totally in love with 'haruka kanata' especially. it rocks. haha...u got good taste man.
i'm in a very pw-ish mood today. did 3 evaluation of info, amended the WR, found new articles, and i actually asked jules for more work. hahahha...crazycrazy.
i burnt a new cd today. wif e nicenicenice jap songs. hahaha...wat's wrong wif me man? i feel extra chirpy rite now. sheesh.
aniwaes muz blog about my funfunfun day yesterday. hmmm...let's see...i onli had ONE lesson yest. dat was pretty pathetic...it was GP in the morning. but i was lyke stoning ar...den PE we did nothing...checked CCA records. dat's it. den e rest of e day...nothing. skipped econs. lol. naughtynaughty...wat to do? doing makeup taf wat. haha...den dere was no lit, no geog (she forgot dere was)...so su henna-ed my hands! soooo cool!! wish i could take a pic of it rite now...dammit no camera fone...and no digicam! wahlau. nvm shall ask ameera to take a pic of it another dae. haha...
aniwaes after dat...a whole bunch of us went to my houz...man was it crowded. ameera, tracy, ra, caroline, shu, liza, sean, delon, haur shen, lionel...woah my room was so damn crowded lar...imagine 11 pple in my tinytiny room. but ra and caroline left to do wr. aniwaes...so lame lah e guys. i haf dis sofa chair in my room and haur shen was sitting on it. den sean sat on him, den lionel sat on sean and delon sat on lionel. i tink dat was e order. man poooor haur shen...den liza was taking a video of dem doing dat and suddenly dey froze for lyke 3 seconds.
liza: i'm taking video lah!!
haha den we all burst out laughing...man e guys are dumb. hahahha...funnyfunny...den we played WORMS. girls against guys.
AND THE GIRLS WON TWICE!!!! hahahaha...and no delon, it was NOT a fluke. ur ONE measly win was a fluke. hahahhahaha...
aniwaes had to go back to sch after dat...hAiz...couldn't fit in one lift so me, ameera, tracy and lionel went to take another lift. ameera kept pressing the lift button so e door for e lift couldn't close. so funny...everytime dey tried to close it, she pressed the button. hahaha...so we finally let them off. den we took e next lift. dis guy from e 10th floor, i tink, took e lift too. den e lift stopped at e 4th floor. nobody came in. 3rd floor. nobody came in. 2nd floor. nobody came in.
and we all realised dis muz be e other lift. hahahha...prob delon or sean...or both. hahaha...so we got off at e 2nd floor, took e other staircase which was out of their view and sat down at e stone benches dere. hahaha...so funny den lionel called sean up.
lionel: where u all?...we all downstairs alreadi...sitting at e benches lah...
hahaha stupidstupidstupid. e rest finally came and we started laughing.
"wat took u all so long?"
"wait here for so long lor."
hahah amateurs. trying to play tricks on us. hah!!! apparently dey(sean and delon) ran up and down e stairs pressing e button. and we had e last laugh. ahhahahah...lame asses.
well den it was pw. damn boring sia. juz stone and did nothing. listened to my fav haruka kanata on delon's cd...haha...love e song!
and yep dat was my funfunfun day. ahahaha...tmrw got pw meeting in e morning...blegh. i bet my pw-ish mood would be totally gone by den. oh wells...shall go watch incredible tales now.
oh yes...maia's been kicked out!!! YESYESYES!!!
"Guys bit the bullet!" HA!
-Worms-
21:51
Friday, October 22, 2004
sometimes...
haiz...
my whole class is gonna be promoted. thank god. dun feel lyke blogging about my day rite now. tho it was fun. maybe i'll do dat tmrw.
cos only one thing has been on my mind today. death.
death is everywhere. yup i'm stating the obvious here. it's inevitable. unavoidable. it can happen anytime. anywhere. any way. heart attacks. car accidents. suicide. murder. whatever. point is, i might juz lose someone i really love at any second. a friend, a family member, a neighbour. and obviously, someone might juz lose me. what if i were to die today? tomorrow? what if one day, on my way to school, i get knocked down by a bus? a bus dat is packed wif MJ students and...friends?
i've never had anyone close to me die...yet. and i'm thankful for that. but it will happen one day. juz like today. i barely knew him. met him twice in my whole entire life. my uncle. i may not feel a deep sense of loss, but how about my father, my grandfather...my grandfather, a man whose children are dying before him.
and i feel...what if one day...i were to get a call...
"there was an accident..."
"...heart attack..."
"i'm sorry."
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
tears. bitterness. mourning. funerals. graves.
death. it's everywhere. happens everyday. but will i be able to handle it when death comes too close? i hope never to find out. but i will. and when that time comes...
....
...
when i say i love you...i mean it.
i do love you.
"the emptiness in my heart. the darkness in my soul. leave me."
20:08
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
worms.worms.worms.worms.worms. it's everywhere!!! haha...
aniwaes today we actually ended ard 12+? aniwaes we decided to go out to tamp. it was me, liza, shushu, flora, haur shen and delon. jules and tracy came along for e bus ride but decided to go home. so we walked ard...den ate...and haur shen and delon were being SO gayyyy...
haha...after dat we wanted to take neoprints. d nerve of those 2 guys!!! dey *ran away* and hid in the toilet! it was so funny...u noe e tm toilets...btw e guys and girls toilet dere's a little room for moms to change their babies diapers...aniwaes we were sitting dere and stupid haur shen came out to check if e coast was clear. we could see his reflection lah...but he din see us. wah damn funny sia. hahahhaha...den he was looking left and right, left and right...den e 2 guys tried to escape. to no avail. hahahah...delon ran off, betraying haur shen. aniwaes...i became bored of chasing dem and we decided to take w/o them. hmph.
i was kinda disappointed haur shen din wanna take...cos dat was lyke e first time he hung out wif us. aiyah delon nvm lah...take before alreadi. hahahahaha...wat's up wif guys and not wanting to take neoprints man?! so few of e guys i noe actually LIKE taking neoprints. hahahhaha...
so delon went off to jules houz first (we were s'posed to do pw dere)...when i reached dere...ameera and him were dere alreadi. he was sleeping and ameera was watchin TV. jules was doing op. suddenly e idiot woke up and said "huh when did u appear??"
......
hahahhahha...aniwaes we ended up playing worms again. AFTER pw k...hahahhaa...yup. so dat was my wonderful wednesday. and oh yah...i juz finished watchin SCARY MOVIE 3. wahlau...damn funny sia!!!! laugh lyke mad man...hahaha...my mom came into my room and was lyke..."kuatnye...satu blok boleh dengar." hahaha...which means..."so loud...e whole block can hear." aiyah not dat loud lah...exaggerating lah she! hahaha...
oh wells sean is sending me e *chanting* song which thanks to delon and himself is stuck in my head. aiyoh. hahahha...k tata!
"maaaaaaaaaaoooooooooooowwwwwwwww."
-the cute little boy who turns blue in 'the grudge'/ju-on'-
*dedicated to caroline*
20:09
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
WORMS ROCK!!!!!
hahahah...yep it totally rocks! hahah me, ameera, delon and jules at my houz today...doing pw ar. supposedly. haha...liza was dere too...alah extra lah she. aniwaes...e pw meeting was VERY VERY productive (haha) until we started playing WORMS.
four teams.
presenting e ever powerful Lizards!!! headed by e ever powerful liza!!! wif team members lyke newt, komodo and gecko, e Lizards is an ever powerful team!
and now, presenting JuLing's Lunch!!! their names instill hunger alongside "fear"...with one of the most powerful meals in the world...*chicken chop*...Lunch proves to be a worthy opponent!
of course...we cannot forget Delon's God's!!! headed by idiotic delona/the lawn/d'lon/lon/etc...worms such as pluto, venus and jupiter are definitely in the hands of a *good* leader. special powers include super/aqua sheep!!
and last but definitely not the least...the most amazing team ever created in WORMS history.....*drumroll* A301!!!!!! yes, the coolest team ever, headed by ~yours truly~sUfi~, with members such as tracee, ameera and jules, it is no wonder A301 is such an unbeatable force!
hahahhaa...bias sia!
aniwaes special guest teams...evil team and the olympians. dey rock too. their aim aniwaes. hahahha...
yes and thus ends our pw meeting.
on to another topic...
i got back my econs paper and gp paper today.
and i cannot put in words e shock i got when i got back my econs paper. we were made to wait...(were showed our overall performance, level, class, etc.) and aniwaes our claz only got one C, a few Es, lots of Os and 3 Fs. i was pretty certain i got O or F (more the latter, but hoping for e former)
u noe lah...my maths damn bad...so me trying to add up e diff marks was pretty hopeless. dey were passing down dis list of e overall mark and grades. and suddenly ameera said...
WOW sufi!! you got C ar?!
i was lyke WHATWHATWHAT?!!
and yes it was true. i actually got a C for econs!!!!!!!!!!! i actually got highest in class!!! i was lyke...woooohhhhhhoooooo!!! but back den it was pretty depressing to get a C cos everyone ard me was pretty depressed. man i hate results. but yep...now i'm pretty happy. overall, everyone did so badly dat i actually got 25th in e whole level. i was lyke wth??? hahahhaa...good news is my darling wives passed too. so yay. ms sue tinks i got an A level pass overall. so yippeee!!!! i mite get promoted after all!
gp was damn disappointing tho...i only got 54. which was crap. can't believe my malay is now soooo much better den gp. haiz....i tink my compo was shitshitshit. dat was pretty crap lah. haiz...aniwaes at least i passed.
now the onli thing i'm worried about is GEOG...scary shit lah. i mite juz fail it. can't afford to tho...cos my mid yr/ca/past stuff all added up to 35. AO pass on the dot. haiyo. diediediediediediedie...
lit...i dun tink e teachers will fail anyone. so i guess it'll be ok...can't afford to do badly for lit. it will be sooo unbelievable if i got higher for econs den lit. sheesh.
oh well...too late to do anythin now. juz hope whoever's marking my paper is in a good mood. haha...
love WORMS. am gonna go play it now.
watch out juling! chicken chop is going down! and not even all those Healths can help you.
watch out delon! e next time we play i'm gonna trash you/kick ur ass/watever lah! and not even ur super sheep can save you!!! bwahhahahah!
watch out liza! be careful ar....kill me summore lah...watch out ar...hahahha...newt is gonna be dead meat!!! banana bomb!!!!
"banana bomb, holy grenade, air strike, shotgun, baseball bat, KAMIKAZE!"
-Worms World Party-
19:31
Monday, October 18, 2004
i watched pearl harbour part 2 juz now. man it was sooo freaking sad. i cried at the end. aiyoh...i couldn't take it lah...josh hartnett was crying and dying...and ben affleck was hugging him and crying...and saying...
"you're not gonna die, danny. cos you're gonna be a father...you're gonna be a daddy..."
wahlau. cannot tahan man. crycrycry. hahahahhaa...
e special effects are damn cool though. the bombs, explosions, everything...
e movie rocked. can't believe i never watched it before. very very touching and so cool. hated e girl tho...first she loves rave (i tink dat's ben affleck's character's name...lol) den when he "dies"...she goes with his best friend, danny (josh hartnett). wahlau.
but e relationship between danny and rave was amazing. dey're such awesome best friends...and dey're so close. always watching out for each other. hmm...gives a whole new meaning to best friends you noe. haiz....
heartbreaking story.
i'm currently reading george orwell's 1984. damn good story. watched e movie before. damn R rated. haha...but it was an amazing storyline lah.
oh yah...got back my malay today. i got B3...which rocks cos it's so unlike me to get more den a C...haha...but my chinese pals din do so well. i tink it's cos of e compo...write out of point or something like dat. dun be so sad k, darling wife/wives? haha...apparently even delon din do well, according to his standards aniwae...and i thot his chinese was damn power or sumthin. so...dun be so sad yah guys? and i'm directing this e special few...love ya lots. *muacKz*
oh yep watched LOVE ACTUALLY juz now. thanks tracy darling! i love dat movie. so niceeeeee...
woah i'm lyke so sleepy rite now. but i shall stay awake till friends. where i noe i'll cry again...dat is if i haf anything left to cry away. hahahaha...k shall go off now.
hmm...juz wondering tho...today dere seems to be a high number of pple online. 46 in fact...oops nope 45 now since delon juz went offline. oh k nope 44 now since my cousin juz went offline too. ok no no 47 now...3 pple juz came online, including flora dearest. yep dis can go on forever. hahahhaha...
"all you need is love."
-Love Actually-
21:40
Sunday, October 17, 2004
yo...my 2nd entry in one day. haha man i'm bored.
well had e pw meeting in e morning. gosh delon was the first to arrive! and he still had time to buy breakfast and all before coming and everyone else still hadn't come. haha woooooowwww...
ameera came a while later while we were playing WORMS WORLD PARTY (thanx tracy) and we played until delon decided to switch to little fighter. jules finally arrived around 11 and we did e wr. actually most of it jules did. haha...me, delon and ameera were juz lazing around, taking pictures. hahahaha...
when we finished, me, delon and jules played WORMS again...stupid delon and his freakin super sheep. hahahaha...fun lah.
damn dere's school tmrw. ugh...
oOOhhhh...it's pearl harbour now. shall go watch. bubbYe.
"oh donkey. oh donkey. my kingdom for a donkey."
-The Olympians, Worms World Party-
19:25
man it's early. and y did i haf to wake up dis early? duhhh pw...hahaha...can die man. aniwaes...i'm still feeling pretty blur. e rest supposed to reach at 9 but i haf predicted they will be late. ameera alreadi smsed and said she'll be late. haha nvm...gives me more time to waste.
yesterday was great. finally didn't have to do anything. no need to study for promos, no need to rush around to do stuff for open house, no need to do anything related to inter-house and all dat crap. juz me, a couch and my book. spent the whole day juz lazing about...watched some TV...read a very funny book. it's actually a whole series lah...shopaholic series. she's one mad obsessed woman...crazy about shopping. if u read it and realise u can relate to her in many ways...u are in big trouble. go see a psychiatrist. haha...
yup...monday actual school will start again. lectures, lectures and more lectures. man...oh yah...on open house day, me and tracy happened to see mr. wee and asked him about our results. apparently, he din mark our class...but sean said ms kalidas said she hasn't failed anyone. mostly Cs and Ds...but she hadn't marked e last 2 scripts. and yep juz his luck, it's his and delon's. hahahhahaha...funny sia.
oh man speakin of lit...i juz found out we haf a 'Silas Marner' test tmrw and a 1984 quiz on wed...i mean lyke wth?? i haven even read anything. wahlau...
my dad finally saw dat my guitar onli had 5 strings. haha...and he went out and bought me 2 sets of strings. dat was quite cool of him. thanks. haha.
and oh my god!!! i juz realised i haven mentioned RAJ at all. very very important.
thanks so much for helping us out for cheerleading!!!!! you totally rocked lah...haha...
THANK YOU RAJ!!
i tink i shall go surf e net or dl songs now. bUbbYe.
"everything i do, i do it for you."
-Bryan Adams-
08:41
Friday, October 15, 2004
MJC OPEN HOUSE 2004
e first day of fasting.
e day i made a fool of myself as a makcik.
well...it was kinda boring at some parts...esp since our performances onli started at 3. sheesh. so we walked ard a lot...sat down, stared at pple, played floorball, etc. i watched performances by other ccas.
band's one rocked. i love e song dey played...e one where jules was playing e bongo (is dat wat it's called?haha)...i juz loveeee e beat. haha...
mcs one was nice too...it was a javanese dance. pretty cool to watch...
dance was kinda scary...it was some belly dancing ting...very creepy esp e part where priya comes in wif e cane. eeeeehhh...haha...
oh well it's over. thank god. now it's on to pw. haiz...life in jc juz sucks.
"mjc open house 2004."
19:46
Thursday, October 14, 2004
PHOBOS ROCKS.
yep definitely...
we got third for cheerleading...it's kinda disappointing. i mean...no offence to calisto...but huh???? dey won for ripping off srjc's cheer man......but it's ok...it's enuff for me dat almost everyone i met after dat thot our performance was great plus dey thot we shld haf won. cool. it was awesome even tho i'm kinda crippled now. can't type properly, can't sms (oh god dat sucks), can't kneel down anymore (i got bruises...sheesh) and i can't even hold a spoon anymore. hahahahha...wth man. but it was all worth it.
miranda's performance was funny lah...haha...atlas was kinda cool. dey did dikir barat style and used sticks...and if judges were looking more for cheering...atlas shld haf won instead of calisto. triton's one was ok. a lot of dance elements to it. but wat was up wif e skin baring? sheesh...
well to e bimbooooo cheerleaders, tracy, jules, su, flora, ameera, shushu, caroline, and finally and most imptly liza. u pple rock. dat was some amazing shit lah. oh yah...some of u managed to injure me (i tink i haf dis "injure-able" aura) and all but still u rock.
oh yeah and su.....
READY?!! OK!!!!!!
hahahaha...
preparations for open houz sucks. i tink our play is shit. i can't play a makcik and i wanna cringe/laugh/cry/puke whenever i tell my "daughter" dat she is adopted. those sec 4s (to tink i was sec 4 last yr and i'm alreadi using THOSE sec 4s. haha) are gonna tink mjc eldds is one big joke. haha...it's kinda true. we've never done any real acting dis past year. i tink my acting skills haf gone rusty. haha oh well hope no one i noe watches e play. *shudders*
man...some people seriously haf an attitude problem. plainly, some pple can be total bitches. i'm referring dis to specifically one person. marliyana lim. fine some pple may tink i'm a bitch for bitchin about her on my blog. but whatever. i dun gif a shit.
she juz barges in, taking charge juz lyke that...juz cos she tinks she's da best there is. oh puhleeze get over urself. juz cos ur e "president of the elite"...u tink u can juz do dat? dat was in the past. now is now. and wat's more you've pretty much missed more den half e meetings dis past year. and suddenly *poof* u appear! sheesh.
and god u and ur dumb sac language. come on...get over it. use plain english. it makes no difference. we CAN understand u. and when u insult my fren in dat fucking language rite in front of her...come on u mite as well tell it to her face. doing e sac lang ting makes it all the more bitchier.
of course e constant tittering in lit lecture cannot be forgotten. sure pple talk during lectures...but not at dat rate. sheesh. it's lyke when e lt is noisy, u can hear marli...when it's quiet, u can hear marli. haiyo...stop it lah. wahlau.
hmm bitching about her on my blog makes me wonder why i didn't say anything during e time dis happened. maybe cos she wouldn't haf cared? god knows...aniwaes even if she were to read dis...or anyone remotely close to her and word gets to her...i doubt she would care. she wld noe dere are pple out there who do hate her...i would gif her dat much. sheesh not everyone is daat lovable. dere are pple who hate me too and possibly bitchin abt me. next time i somehow come across sum person's blog...i suddenly see...sufi is a total bitch.
wow i'll prob be pissed off but whatever. so i'm a bitch. d'oh.
no more talking abt marli.
she still plagues my mind. somehow she juz keeps coming up everytime. it's...haunting.
well to all my muslim friends.
Selamat Berpuasa.
to my cheerleading bimbo-for-a-few-days friend.
Once again u pple totally rock.
to all my other friends.
Goodnite and sweet dreams!
"depression sets in. darkness washes over me. somebody save me."
21:33
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
sleepover was at flora's houz...only me, her and tracy...watched movies, laughed and was half asleep. haha...aniwaes it wasn't as fun as d laz one...i guess cos dere's onli 3 of us and we were alreadi half dead. but it was ok...aniwaes e nxt dae tracy left at lyke 7 or 8...and me and flora went to parkway parade.
it was an ok place...not as kickin as tamp tho. haha...she cut her fringe!!! and i told her it looks cute but she juz WON'T believe me. fine den. on e way dere...we were talking abt frens and relationships...and it made me think about...
her.
aniwaes liza, akrab and su came over after dat to haf a cheerleading practice...it was fun but tiring. haha...juz reached home lyke 20 min ago?? i dunno...
juz when i was thinking of her.
i saw her juz now. i almost forgot to breathe. i wanted to say hi. but.........i didn't.
she really likes him, i can tell. juz from e way she looks at him. is it juz my imagination? i dun tink so. she treasures every single moment with him. sometimes she reminds me of a confused little girl...wandering the dark, cold streets...too tired to cry...scared and lonely. all because of him.
and i can't stop thinking about it. it plagued my every thought after that...as i was sitting in flora's houz and listening to 'last song'...i juz...thought of...her. i was worried, scared, angry, sad...all at e same time. and for dat one second everything juz went silent. i couldn't hear anything, i didn't see anything, i was just lost in my own world. and i felt suffocated. i felt lyke drowning.
it's lyke a bomb was dropped on me. i juz...
i dun want her to get hurt. one thing comes to my mind when i tink about him...
JERK.
she was onli crushing on him. and alreadi his actions made her heart break...little by little. and she cried. because of him.
she began to like him more. and every single hurtful ting he said to her...made her cry even more. she became depressed. because of him.
every single time i saw dat sad look on her face...everytime he brushed her off...i felt...
angry.
damn fucking angry.
always. because. of. him.
i told her she shld stop liking him. easier said den done. i told her he wld hurt her. he already was.
...you're jealous...
...you like him too...
...why can't you juz be happy for me?...
suffocating.
...ur juz trying to take me out of the picture.........no........
...why can't u juz accept this?...............i can't............
...ur s'posed to be my fren................i am..........
i hate him.
juz writing dis...makes my blood boil.
i dun get angry easily. frens noe dis. i get irritated. but i nv ever get angry w/o a good reason.
but when i do....
a murderous rage.
bottled up feelings. volcano juz waiting to erupt. don't test me.
i noe he doesn't read my blog. i dunno if she does. but if dey do get together...he better not do anything to hurt her.
don't you fucking dare.
don't. you. fucking. dare.
i'm sorry. i really am. i wish...
it doesn't matter now.
i'll always be here for you.
"the look on her face when he said no...i'll kill dat fucking bastard."
19:48
Sunday, October 10, 2004
i was reading my fren's blog and she was talking abt exorcist...esp dis scene in e church. e possessed woman said somethin dat made me laugh...shall not say anymore in case i spoil it for u pple. haha...
watching jaws now. so stupid. haha. kinda shocking at one part where dis guy is checking out e whole in e boat and suddenly dis dead guy's face floats out. and it's lyke one eyeball is hanging out. dat was fucking gross. hahaha...
been doing nothing dis whole weekend. which kinda rocked and sucked at e same time. it was boring and all. but it felt nice to juz sit at home and do nothing. watching tv, vcds, etc.
my best friend's wedding was on axn juz now. ahhh i love dat movie. it totally rocks. haha. i love george! he's so funny...esp e part where he starts singing in e restaurant. hahaha...very cool lah.
watched backstage pass. amazing stuff on good charlotte, incubus, blink 182, linkin park, etc...and mtv ask: sum 41!!! soooo cool. haha...dey're damn funny esp stevo.
watched bowling for columbine. it rocks man. michael moore is an amazing film maker...he really makes you sit up and open ur eyes. over 11000 pple die in the US from gun murders. it's a bigger no den other countries combined. sheesh.
they were in canada...ontario which is right opp detroit (it's lyke crime capital)...and the gun murder rates is lyke...whoa lowwwwww...close to zero.
"the reason why the haf so few murders must be because dey haf so few guns".
but it's not true. 10 million homes. 7 million guns. amazing rite...
e 6 yr old killing e other 6 yr old was sad. it juz isn't rite. but dis world is screwed up.
alrighty...looking forward to tmrw!!!
"don't you want to fuck me anymore, lancaster?"
::The Exorcist::
20:38
Friday, October 08, 2004
i went out again today! wif anu. she juz finished her promos today. haha...
so we went to eat at popeye's at changi before going to orchard. man...juz went dere yesterday. hahahhaa...went to watch...
The Exorcist: The Beginning
hahha...i lurve e movie. very cool. it's more e sound effects which shock me den e movie itself. it's a pretty gory movie...kinda scary too. if u r planning to watch it and dun wanna noe wat happens...ignore d rez of dis paragraph!!!! dere's dis one part where e guy was crawling in dis tunnel and his lamp went out...den wen he lit it again, scary woman was rite in front of him. scarryyyyy...hahahhaa...
it's a must watch movie. i gif it 4 out 5 stars!! wOOhoO. aniwaes i wanna watch dis movie dat's coming out called "The Forgotten"...it looks pretty cool man. haha...
went HMV again...and i saw sum 41's new cd!!!! but it's onli dere on sum pre-order ting...haiz no money man. it's $17.95. i listened to good charlotte's cd...ahhhh i love joel's voice!!! hahha...aniwaes dat's $20.95 i tink...den i also saw green day's cd...dat's $19.95...hAiz...anu says she wanna buy e sum 41 cd for me for my bdae...hahahaha...
so i gotta save about 40 bucks. haiz...
off track here...but...
some pple should really juz learn to mind their own business. they shld really get themselves a life...i mean since they love so much to meddle in other pple's lives, i assume they dun haf lives of their own. dey prob tink dey're doing others a favour...dey might tink dey're being total sweethearts...but dey're really juz being a pain in the ass.
and if dey tink whatever dey do is gonna break you...dat ur so fucking fragile...dat ur juz gonna shatter into a million pieces...juz ignore them. they're not worth ur time...dey obviously tink e world of themselves. btw...to you(u noe who u are *muacKz*): calling her a bitch is a disgrace to all bitches(humans and animals alike...lol). so dun bother wif her(them)...whatever.
i love you.
oh aniwaes...
hahhahhahaha!!!!! david yeo got voted out!!! yessa!!!!
GO TAUFIK!!
GO DAPHNE!!
GO OLINDA!!
GO SYLVESTER!!
yup. dl a whole bunch of jap songs juz now. i s'pose i got lotsa luck. somehow i always happen to come across pple who are online for a loooong time and e speed damn faaaast. and dey also haf all e songs i want!!! man wat are e odds...guess not everyone has my kazaa luck...hahaha...sorry delona.
okie dokie. shall go dl more songs or sumthing. tata.
"God is not here today, priest."
--The Exorcist--
21:34
it's friday morning. can't believe i'm up dis early. hahahaha...
oh well exams ended yest (thank god) but i tink i screwed up. 05A301 here i come. haha...hMm let's see my lit paper ended at 5...s'posed to meet dee at bedok mrt station cos she was at parkway parade. so yah...went wif tracy, flora and delon since dey were goin home. talked crap along e way...as usual...
den i went to meet dee. go orchard talk talk walk walk shop shop...makan at kfc...i love cheese. aniwaes we saw dis guy wif ear piercings in e most weirdest places. it's not even on e earlobe...it's lyke e flesh inside e ear?? i dunno how to explain lah...haha...den wen he was ordering, he stuck his butt out and we started laughing. hahahhaa...saw caroline and a few of her odac frens...saw dee's fren, grace, and other pple lyke shawn paul, diana...
bought new ear studs (finally) and ear sticks. den we din wanna go home but nothing to do anymore...so we did. den i realised how tired i was. saw dis really weird guy on the mrt. he kept talking to himself. i guess we all haf our crazy days. hahahha...
so i was in e lift at around 9 when delon called me up. haven even stepped into e houz wen he told me go log into kazaa. impatient sia. fine so i went into kazaa...he wanted to dl songs from me. but he couldn't find me...so forced to go onto msn. hahaha...den dat stupid bugger deprived me of a bath for e next hour or so. it was dumb. we were on e fone (he talks a lot btw..haha...he can go on and on until i find myself stoning. haha.) and we were on msn at e same time but i guess if i told him to go type e song title out, it would take i dunno until next year or sumthin?? hahahah...yep.
so finally got to bathe...so refreshing. haha...den went to sleep.
yah...so dat was my day. fun. i feel lyke going out today too. but dunno who to ask out.
"terrified. petrified. mortified. stupified by you."
::A Beautiful Mind::
09:50
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
hmm taking a break from studying econs now. it's about 3am. haha...apparently some pple *ahem ahem* are jealous of my ability to stay up and study. hahahaha...
aniwaes we had our econs essay paper and lit (m4m and utopia) papers. econs was surprisingly ok...and mkt failure and labour mkt came out so YAY. haha. lit was ok too i guess...din finish my m4m tho...din haf enuff time. utopia had lots of time...look ard...read e bk for a while...haha...
since econs finished at 9.30...and lit only started at 2, i went home and jules, tracy and delon tagged along. spent some time watching videos of blink 182, green day, sum 41, etc. fun. but din study dat much. maybe din at all. haha. delon was looking thru all my jap songs in kazaa and taking down e songs which were nice. apparently i am depriving him of many many songs by not sharing any of my files. hahaha.
jules and tracy tried to eat e baulu....but it was freaking hard. it was lyke a rock, i swear. pple can get concussion if dey get hit in the head by it. hahahha...
and i tink delon and tracy are freaking stressed out. dey juz started laughing lyke mad cows and jules and me were lyke huh??? but den wen dey stopped laughing, we started laughing abt sumthing else...so i guess we're all pretty affected by school. sheEsh.
i love hanging out with them lah. dey haf so much gossip on their fingertips. plus they can be extremely bitchy. haha. i watched mean girls juz now. and i am so reminded.
tmrw(i mean today) dun hafta go sch. thank god. but good luck to the maths (blegh) pple. haha...
thursday our last day. three more papers. econs mcq, drq cum case study and lit (PC) paper. hmm...after dat we'll haf fuNfUnFun!!!!
so gonna watch e exorcist and princess diaries 2. den gonna haf those movie/gossip sleepovers wif e gang. haha. yay for pirated vcds man. gonna get myself a life (until e results dat is) hahhhahahaha...oh well. shall go continue wif econs. *muacKz*
"she's a fugly slut."
--Mean Girls--
02:50
Monday, October 04, 2004
man...i felt such an amazing sense of relief when i finished my geog paper. it was "PENS DOWNS!" and phew....
haha...
well one content subject gone...two more subjects and 6 more papers. wahlau.
i got econs (essay!) and m4m paper and utopia paper. sheesh. it's so unfair. dey shld haf changed e lit papers...we can't study for PC at all...so thurs is lyke...er...
alah...so many freaking essays to do tmrw...gotta go buy pen ink sia. after e geog exam...my pen ink was practically depleted lah. i was lyke...wth...
aniwaes went home wif tracy and delon. (e bitch queens...lol) so funny lah dey all. someone even bought lime juz for dis girl. *ahem ahem* according to sean...a fanboy. hahahaha...quite true.
watched friends again...i tink dis is the funniest episode of e season....especially the ending...
ross: you were under the pile of coats?!
monica: i WAS the pile of coats!
...
..
.
monica: you were my midnight mystery kisser?!
ross: you were my first kiss with rachel?!!
monica: you were my first kiss ever?!
chandler: WHAT DID I MARRY INTO?!!
oh man i love chandler! hahahhaha...
oh well...shall go *try* to study for my econs. i tell you...after promos i'm gonna haf fun for the 2 wks b4 e results. i'm gonna go out go out go out and GO OUT!!
hahahaha...*muAcKz*
"it's white...paper, snow, a ghost!" ::Joey::
--f.r.i.e.n.d.s--
23:40
Sunday, October 03, 2004
dere's about another 16 hrs to my malay exam. which will soon be followed by geog. blegh. time passes so quickly.
btw the mjc open house in on the...
15th of october
friday
10am-5pm
if ur free come down lah...haha...
promospromospromos...haiz.
a scene from Ed...very nice show. i lurve it.
ed's drawing up e will for charlie (molly's grandpa)
charlie: and ron.
ed: ok. who's ron?
charlie: my lover.
(another scene where ed's telling charlie's family he has a bf...charlie wanted to but he died b4 he had e chance)
ed: he was a great man...brave, amazing...
molly: funny, don't forget funny.
ed: yeah, and gay. now moving on...
no idea what i'm talking abt? nvm.
haha....
"maybe our friends will hit it off, or maybe we will."
::Dashboard Confessional::
16:42
